小夭和馨悦不一样，她曾独自一人在深山二十多年，又被九尾狐幽禁过三十年，她虽然喜欢有人陪伴，可她对陪伴对象却很挑剔，如果不喜欢，宁可自己一个人待着自娱自乐。

Xiaoyao is different from Xinyue, she has lived alone in the mountains for over 20 years, and held captive by the Nine-tailed Fox demon for over 30 years, she may like company, but she is very picky about who her companion is, if she does not like them, she’d rather seek amusement alone.

长相思第9章 生相依，死相随(1)

她真的没力气了，就那一点点比风中烛火更微弱的心跳都已耗尽了她全部的力气。即使有另一颗心脏的牵引鼓励，她的心跳也越来越微弱。

    突然，源源不绝的灵力输入进来，让那点微弱的心跳能继续。

    她听不到、看不见、什么都感受不到，可是她觉得难过，因为那些灵力是那么伤心绝望。连灵力都在哭泣，小夭实在想不出来这些灵力的主人该多么伤心绝望。
小夭想看看究竟是谁在难过，却实在没有力气，只能随着另一颗心脏的牵引，把自己慢慢锁了起来，就如一朵鲜花从盛放变回花骨朵，又从花骨朵变回一颗种子，藏进了土壤中。等待严冬过去，春天来临。

小夭看不见、听不到、感受不到，却又有意识，十分痛苦。

She really had no more strength left, just that little flicker of a heartbeat weaker than a flame in the wind, already took up every bit of strength she had. Even though there is another heart towing hers along in encouragement, her heartbeat is becoming very faint.

Suddenly, an endless flow of spiritual energy entered her and let her very faint heartbeat continue.

She can’t hear, can’t see, can’t feel a thing, but she felt sad, because the spiritual energy is full of grief and anguish. Even the spiritual energy is crying, Xiaoyao really can’t imagine how much sadness and despair the owner is feeling.

Xiaoyao wanted to see who is sad, but she really had no strength, she could only follow the other heart’s guidance, to slowly lock herself away, like a fresh flower in bloom that reversed back into a bud, from a bud back into a seed, hiding back into the ground. Waiting for the harsh winter to be over, for spring to arrive.

Xiaoyao could not see, could not hear, could not feel, but she was conscious, and it was excruciating.

长相思第13章 但感别时久(2)

 寂灭的黑暗中，时间没有开始，也没有结束，一切都成了永恒。

In the tranquil darkness, time had no beginning, no end, everything became eternity.

长相思第6章 岁月静好与君同(1)

“小夭，你还记得涂山璟吗？玟小六的叶十七。自你昏睡后，他也昏迷不醒，全靠灵药续命，支撑到现在，已经再支撑不下去，他就快死了。”

“Xiaoyao, do you still remember Tushan Jing? Wen Xiaoliu’s Ye Shiqi. Since you were in a coma, he has also been unconscious, fully dependent on spiritual medicines to sustain his life until now.
He can’t hold on much longer, he is dying.”

长相思第13章 但感别时久(2)

 璟、璟……小夭自己死时，都没觉得难过。生命既有开始，自然有终结，开始不见得是喜悦，终结也不见得是悲伤，可现在，她觉得很难过，她不想璟死。

    小夭努力地想动。

相柳问：“如果他死了，你是不是会很伤心，恨我入骨？”

    小夭在心里回答：我不要璟死，我也不会恨你。

Jing…Jing….. When Xiaoyao was dying herself, she had not felt upset. Since life has a beginning, it naturally has an end, there might not be joy just because it began, so its not necessarily sorrowful when it ends. But now, she felt very upset, she did not want Jing to die.

Xiaoyao tried her hardest to move.

Xiangliu asked ” If he died, will you be very sad and hate me to the bone?”

Xiaoyao answered in her heart ” I don’t want Jing to die, but I won’t hate you.”

长相思第13章 但感别时久(2)

她带小夭来到一片木樨林中，林中单盖了一座大木屋，整个屋子都用的是玉山桃木，走进桃木屋，屋内还种满了各种灵气浓郁的奇花异草，组成了一个精妙的阵法，把灵气往阵眼汇聚。阵眼处，放着一张用上等归墟水晶雕刻而成的晶榻，璟正静静地躺在榻上。

小夭走到榻旁坐下，细细看璟，他身体枯瘦，脸色苍白。

She brought Xiaoyao into a patch of Osmanthus grove, inside there is a big wooden house, the entire house is built from wood from Mount Jade’s peach trees. Entering this peach-tree house, there is all kinds of spirit herbs and flowers planted inside, forming a very exquisite formation, gathering the spirit energy in the center of the formation. At the center, there is a crystal bed made of top grade Guixu crystal, Jing is lying quietly on the bed.

Xiaoyao walked to the side of the bed, looked at Jing closely. She saw that he is very thin and deathly pale.

长相思第14章 但感别时久(3)

小夭纳闷地说：“的确如医师所说，璟是自己在求死。发生了什么事？他竟然伤心到不愿活下去？”

    静夜满是怨气地看着小夭：“王姬竟然不明白？”

Xiaoyao is perplexed: ” It is as the doctors have said, Jing is seeking death. What happened? He is so sad that he refused to live?”

Jingye is full of resentment as she looked at Xiaoyao ” Princess you really don’t understand?”

长相思第14章 但感别时久(3)

小夭俯身凝视着璟，喃喃自语：“你真为了我竟伤心到自绝生机？”小夭觉得匪夷所思，心上的硬壳却彻底碎裂了，那一丝斩了几次都没斩断的牵念，到这一刻终于织成了网。

Xiaoyao leaned over Jing, and mumbled to herself ” Did you really give up living because you were grieving for me? Xiaoyao felt incredulous but the hard shell around her heart completely shattered, the thread that she had tried to cut a few times, finally become a net in this moment.

长相思第14章 但感别时久(3)

小夭抚着璟的脸，叹了口气，对璟说：“怎么办呢？上次你伤得虽然严重，可你自己还有求生意志，不管吞咽多么艰难，都尽力配合，这次却拒绝吃药。

Xiaoyao caressed Jing’s face and sighed to him ” What should we do? Even though you were seriously injured last time, you still had the will to live. No matter how difficult it was to swallow, you did your best to cooperate, but now you refuse to take the medicine.”

长相思第14章 但感别时久(3)

小夭放下了药碗，抱住璟的脖子，轻轻地在他的眼睛上吻了下，又轻轻地在他的鼻尖吻了下，再轻轻地含住了璟的唇。她咬着他的唇，含糊地嘟囔：“还记得吗？在这个园子里，我跟着你学琴。每一次，你都不好意思，明明很想亲我，却总是尽力忍着，还刻意地避开我。其实我都能感觉到，可我就喜欢逗你，装作什么都不知道，看你自己和自己较劲，可你一旦亲了，就从小白兔变成了大灰狼，不管我怎么躲都躲不掉，我就从大灰狼变成了小白兔……”

Xiaoyao set the bowl of medicine down, she placed her arms around Jing’s neck and gently kissed him on his eyes, tip of his nose and his lips. Still on his lips, she mumbled unclearly ” Do you still remember? I was learning to play the zither from you in this garden. Every time, you were embarrassed, you clearly wanted to kiss me but you always suppressed yourself and deliberately avoided me. Actually I could feel it, but I liked to tease you and pretended I wasn’t aware. I wanted to see you struggle with yourself, but once you kissed me, you turned from a little white rabbit into a big grey wolf, no matter how I tried I couldn’t escape, I turned from a big grey wolf into a little white rabbit…..”

长相思第14章 但感别时久(3)

 小夭端起药碗，自己喝了一口药，吻着璟，把药汁一点点渡进他嘴里。璟的意识还未苏醒，可就如藤缠树，一旦遇见就会攀援缠绕，他的身体本能地开始了纠缠，下意识地吮吸着，想要那蜜一般的甜美，一口药汁全都缓缓地滑入了璟的咽喉。

就这样，一边吻着，一边喝着药，直到把一碗药全部喝光。

    璟面色依旧苍白，小夭却双颊酡红，她伏在璟的肩头，低声说：“醒来好吗？我喜欢你做大灰狼。”

Xiaoyao lifted the bowl of medicine and took a mouthful. She slowly passed the medicine a little at a time into his mouth as she kissed Jing. Jing’s consciousness has not awakened yet, but just as a vine will entwine a tree, once it meets it will climb and wind around it, his body began to react instinctively, subconsciously sucking, to want the sweetness that is like honey, as the mouthful of medicine slowly went down his throat.

And in this way, the bowl of medicine was finished with kissing and swallowing.

Jing is still very pale but Xiaoyao’s cheeks were flushed red as she lied down on Jing’s shoulder and said in a low voice “Can you wake up soon? I like it when you are the wolf.”

长相思第14章 但感别时久(3)

静夜忙道：“王姬，您究竟是如何给公子喂的药？您教教我吧！”如果小夭是一般人，静夜还敢留她照顾公子，可小夭是王姬，不管静夜心里再想，也不敢让小夭来伺候公子进药。

    小夭的脸色有点发红，厚着脸皮说：“我的喂药方法是秘技，不能传授。”

    静夜满脸失望，却又听小夭说道：“我会留在这里照顾璟，等他醒来再离开，所以你学不会也没关系。”

Jingye was amazed ” Princess, how did you feed Master the medicine? Please teach it to me!” If Xiaoyao is a normal person, Jingye would dare to ask her to stay to take care of him, but Xiaoyao is a princess, no matter how much Jingye wished, she did not dare to ask Xiaoyao to wait on her Master to take his medicine.

Xiaoyao’s face blushed a little, as she replied unabashedly ” How I feed medicine is a secret skill, can’t impart it.”

Jingye’s face was full of disappointment, but she heard Xiaoyao continue ” I will stay here to take care of Jing and only leave after he wakes up, so its fine even if you don’t learn how to do it.”

长相思第14章 但感别时久(3)

等静夜把肉糜蔬菜粥送来，小夭自己喝了大半碗，喂璟喝了几口。

    小夭的身体也算是大病初愈，已经一日一夜没有休息，现在放松下来，觉得很累。

    静夜进来收拾碗筷，小夭送她出去，说道：“我要休息一会儿，没要紧事，就别来叫我。

 小夭把璟的身体往里挪了挪，爬到榻上，在璟身边躺下，不一会儿，就沉入了梦乡。

After Jingye brought in the minced meat and vegetable porridge, Xiaoyao had a big half of it, and she fed Jing a few mouthfuls.

Xiaoyao’s body had also recovered from a great illness ( near-death ), and she has not had any rest for 24 hours. Now that she is finally at ease, she felt very tired.

Jingye come in to remove the tableware, Xiaoyao saw her out ” I need to rest a little while, if there is nothing serious, don’t come in to call me.”

Xiaoyao pushed Jing’s body further in, got on and laid down beside him. In a very short while, she fell asleep.

长相思第14章 但感别时久(3)

颛顼看着榻上的璟，无奈地说：“好。但是……”颛顼狠狠敲了小夭的头一下，“不许再和他睡在一张榻上了，看在别人眼里算什么？难道我妹妹没有男人要了吗？要赶着去倒贴他？”

Cang Xuan looked at Jing on the bed and said resignedly “Alright. But….” he knocked Xiaoyao’s head once, ” No more sleeping on the same bed as him, what will it look like to others? Does no other man want my sister? You are in a rush to let him take advantage of you?

长相思第14章 但感别时久(3)

颛顼对馨悦和丰隆说：“我刚才告诉小夭，当日若非璟恰好出现救了她，纵使我赶到，只怕也晚了。小夭很感激璟的相救之恩，她恰好懂得一些民间偏方，所以想亲自照顾璟。”

    馨悦和丰隆虽觉得有一点奇怪，可目前最紧要的事就是救回璟，不仅涂山氏需要璟，颛顼和丰隆也都非常需要璟。只要璟能醒来，别说要小夭去照顾他，就是要馨悦和丰隆去照顾也没问题。

Cang Xuan told Xinyue and Fenglong ” I was just telling Xiaoyao, if Jing did not appear coincidentally to save her that day, even if I had rushed there it would have been too late. Xiaoyao is very grateful to him. She happens to know some remedies that may help, so she wants to stay to take care of Jing.”

Xinyue and Fenglong thought it was a little strange, but the most important thing right now is to save Jing. Not only the Tushan family needs him, Cang Xuan and Feng long also need him very much. As long as he can wake up, let alone for Xiaoyao to take care of him, even if they need Xinyue and Fenglong to help take care of him, will be no issue.

长相思第14章 但感别时久(3)

静夜已经熬好药，正眼巴巴地等着小夭。她刚才偷偷地给公子喂了一下药，发现压根儿喂不进去，只得赶紧收拾好一切，等小夭回来。

小夭让静夜出去，等静夜离开后，小夭一边扶璟坐起，一边说：“也不知道你听不听得到，我昏迷时，虽然人醒不过来，却能听到外面的声音。”

  小夭喂完璟喝药后，又扶着他躺下。

小夭收好玉简，对璟说：“我和父王说要回去探望他，你愿不愿意和我一块儿回去？”

    小夭下了榻：“我得回去睡觉了。”她看着璟清瘦的样子，低声说，“我也想陪你啊，可我哥哥不让，明天早上我再来看你。”

小夭回到璟以前住的屋子，在璟以前睡过的榻上翻来覆去、覆去翻来，熬了半个时辰都没有睡着。

Jingye had prepared the medicine and was waiting anxiously for Xiaoyao. She had secretly tried to feed Jing some medicine, but it won’t go down at all, so she could only tidy things up and wait for Xiaoyao to return.

Xiaoyao had Jingye leave, until she is gone, Xiaoyao helped Jing sit up, and told him ” I don’t know if you can hear me, when I was in a coma, even though I couldn’t wake up, I could hear the noises outside.”

Xiaoyao finished feeding Jing his medicine and laid him back down.

She kept her letter and told Jing ” I told my father go back to visit him, are you willing to go back with me?”

Xiaoyao got off the bed “I have to go back to sleep now.” She looked at Jing, all gaunt, and said in a low voice “I do want to stay with you, but my brother won’t allow it. I will come see you tomorrow morning.”

**Xiaoyao returned to the house Jing used to live in. As she laid on the bed Jing used to lie on, she tossed and turned for an hour and still could not get to sleep.

长相思第15章 但感别时久(4)

    小夭摸着黑，爬到榻上，在璟身边躺下，对璟低声说：“我不说、你不说，谁都不知道，哥哥不知道，就是没发生。”

    小夭下午睡了一觉，这会儿并不算困。

    她对着璟的耳朵吹气：“你到底听不听得到我说话？”

    她去摸璟的头发：“头发没有以前摸着好了，明日我给你洗头。”

    她去捏他的胳膊：“好瘦啊，又要硌着我了。” 

Xiaoyao got onto the bed in the dark and laid down beside Jing. She told Jing is a low voice ” If I don’t say anything, you don’t say anything, no one will know. If my brother doesn’t know, then it didn’t happen.”

Xiaoyao slept in the afternoon so she was not sleepy now.
She blew in Jing’s ear, ” Can you even hear me?”
She touched Jing’s hair ” Its not as good as before, I will wash your hair tomorrow.”
She felt his arm “You are so thin, your bones are poking me **again.”

长相思第15章 但感别时久(4)

被小六精心照顾了大半年，男子虽然不像刚开始似的瘦得皮包骨头，可依旧非常轻，小六抱起他时，念叨：“多吃点啊，都硌着我骨头了。

After Xiaoliu’s extremely good care for about half a year, the man is no longer all skin and bones as he had been, but he was still very light, when Xiaoliu held him up, she nagged ” Eat more, your bones are poking me.”

长相思第3章 人生忽如寄(2)

她顺着他的胳膊，握住了他的手，和他十指交缠：“他们说，你是因为我死了才不想活了，真的吗？你真的这么在意我吗？”

    小夭把头窝在璟的肩窝中：“如果你真把我看得和自己性命一样重要，是不是不管碰到什么，都永远不会舍弃我？”

    屋内寂寂无言。

    小夭轻声笑：“你真聪明，这种问题是不能回答的。有些事情不能说，一说就显得假了，只能做。”

    小夭闭上了眼睛：“璟，快点醒来吧！”

She continued down his arm and held his hand, entwining her fingers in his: “They all said you didn’t want to live because I died, is it true? Do you really care about me that much?”

Xiaoyao nestled her head on Jing’s shoulder “If you really see me as important as your life, will you never abandon me no matter what happens?”

There is only silence in the room.

Xiaoyao laughed softly ” You are so smart. This kind of question cannot be answered. Some things can’t be said. Once they’re said, they seem fake. It can only be proven though action.”
Xiaoyao closed her eyes” Jing, wake up soon!”

长相思第15章 但感别时久(4)

静夜知道她大病初愈，身体也不大好，给她准备的依旧是烂烂的肉糜蔬菜粥，小夭边吃边问：“你什么时候到的璟身边？”

    静夜回道：“按人族的年龄算，八岁。公子那时候七岁。”

    小夭的眼睛亮了：“那你们几乎算是一起长大的了，你肯定知道很多他小时候的事情，好姐姐，你讲给我听吧！璟小时候都做过什么调皮捣蛋的事？”

    静夜愣了一愣，防风意映在青丘住了十几年，从没有问过她这些事情，只有一次把她和兰香叫去，询问她们所掌管的公子的私账。

    静夜给小夭讲起璟小时的事，都是些鸡毛蒜皮的琐事，小夭却听得津津有味，边听边笑，静夜也想起了小时候的快乐，不禁愁眉展开，笑声不断。

Jingye knows that Xiaoyao has just recovered herself, so she still prepared soft meat and vegetable porridge for her. As Xiaoyao ate she asked ” When did you arrive at Jing’s side?”

Jingye answered ” **Based on human age, 8 years old. Master was 7 at the time.”
Xiaoyao’s eyes brightened ” Then you two have almost grown up together, you must know alot about his childhood. Good sister, please tell them to me! What kind of mischievous things did Jing get up to when he was young?”

Jingye was a little stunned, Fangfeng Yiying had stayed at Qingqiu for over 10 years but she had never asked her about these things. Once she called Lanxiang and her over, to ask them about Master’s private accounts that they were in charge of.

Jingye told Xiaoyao about Jing’s childhood stories, its was just inconsequential trifles, but Xiaoyao listened with great relish and laughed as she listened. As Jingye recalled the happy moments when they were young, she also cheered up and was full of laughter.

长相思第15章 但感别时久(4)

 静夜怕小夭不会做这些事，站在旁边，准备随时接手，可没想到小夭一举一动都熟练无比，而且她的举动自带着一股温柔呵护，让人一看就明白她没有一丝勉强。

    璟虽然不言不语、没有表情，却让人觉得他只愿意被小夭照顾，在小夭身边，他就犹如鱼游于水、云浮于天，有了一切，身体舒展放松。

    静夜看了一会儿，悄悄地离开了。

小夭坐在小杌子上，十指插在璟的头发中，一边按摩着璟头部的穴位，一边絮絮叨叨地说：“等会儿洗完头发，你就躺这里晒会儿太阳，我也晒会儿。其实，我还是喜欢竹席子，可以滚来滚去地晒，把骨头里的懒虫都晒出来，全身麻酥酥的，一点不想动弹……再过一个月，木樨就该开花了，到时你总该醒来了吧……”

    小夭并没有等一个月。

    四日后，木樨林中，一张木樨木做的卧榻，璟躺在榻上。

Jingye was afraid Xiaoyao don’t know how to do such tasks, so she stood by the side, ready to take over. But unexpectedly Xiaoyao was extremely skilled, her every action filled with gentle tender care, obvious to anyone who saw that there was nothing forced in what she was doing.

Jing may have no words nor expression, but one can feel that he is only willing to be cared for by Xiaoyao. With Xiaoyao by his side, he was like a fish in the water, a cloud in the sky, having it all, his body fully relaxed.

Jingye watched for a little while, then she quietly left.

Xiaoyao sat on the small stool, her 10 fingers inserted into Jing’s hair, as she massaged the acupoints on his head, she rambled on ” After we finish washing your hair, you lie here in the sun for a while, and I will also do the same. Actually, I still prefer a bamboo mat, because we can roll around as we sunbathe, to get the lazy bugs out from our bones. The whole body will be numb and won’t feel like moving….. In a month, the Osmanthus flowers should be blooming, you should be awake by then……”

Xiaoyao did not wait for a month.
4 days later, in the Osmanthus grove, Jing was lying on a bed made out of Osmanthus wood.

长相思第15章 但感别时久(4)

小夭膝行了几步，挨到榻旁：“为什么醒了也不叫我？”

    璟道：“我怕是一场梦，一出声就惊走了你。”

    小夭抓起他的手，贴在脸颊上：“还是梦吗？”

Xiaoyao moved a few steps over on her knees to the edge of the bed ” Why didn’t you tell me you are awake?”

Jing said ” I’m afraid its a dream and you will be frightened away if I made a sound.”

Xiaoyao caught his hand and put it on her own face ” Is it still a dream?”

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小夭蜷坐在木樨榻上，听着馨悦的声音嗡嗡不停，她懒懒地笑起来，刚才，整个天地好似只有璟和她，可不过一会儿，所有人、所有事都扑面而来。

Xiaoyao curled up on the bed, as she listened to Xinyue’s voice, she smiled lazily. Just now, it was as if the entire world was only Jing and her, but soon, everyone and everything will be coming at them.

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因为璟刚醒，他的饭菜和其他人都不同，是炖得糜烂的粥，璟喝了小半碗就放了勺子，和丰隆说着话。小夭蹙眉，突然说道：“璟，你再吃半碗。”

    璟立即搁下手中的茶杯，又舀了半碗粥，低头吃起来。

丰隆哈哈笑道：“璟，你几时变得这么听话了？”

馨悦和颛顼却都没笑。

As Jing just woke, his meal is different from the others, its a very soft porridge. Jing took less than half of it before he rested his spoon as he talked to Fenglong. Xiaoyao frowned and suddenly said “Jing, eat another half a bowl.”
Jing immediately set down the tea cup he was holding and continued eating.

Fenglong laughed heartily ” Jing, when did you become so obedient?”

Cang Xuan and Xinyue did not laugh.

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 璟说：“我曾无比渴望站在俊帝陛下面前，堂堂正正地求娶小夭，为此我一忍再忍。但当我经历了一次失去后，发现什么都不重要，只要能和小夭在一起，我愿意放弃一切。如果奶奶不愿意涂山璟退婚，我可以放弃做涂山璟。”

    涂山璟这个名字代表着什么，颛顼非常清楚，不仅仅是可敌国的财富，还是可以左右天下的权势。颛顼见过各种各样的男人，但他从没有见过愿意为一个女人舍弃一切的男人。颛顼不禁也有些动容，神色缓和起来：“其实，这事我没有办法替小夭做主，要看她怎么想。”

Jing said” I was once desperate to be able to stand before the King of Haoling, to ask for Xiaoyao’s hand, for this I endured alot of things. But now that I have experienced loss once, I found that nothing else matters. As long as I can be with Xiaoyao, I am willing to give up everything. If Grandmother won’t agree to Tushan Jing breaking the engagement, then I will give up being Tushan Jing.”

Cang Xuan was very clear what the name Tushan Jing meant. Not only it is wealth that can rival a nation, it is a power that can influence the world. Cang Xuan had seen all kinds of men, but he never seen someone who was willing to give up everything for a woman. Cang Xuan could not help being moved, and his expression softened ” Actually I can’t make this decision for Xiaoyao, it will depend on what she thinks.”

    小夭从一株木樨树后走出，走到璟身前，检查了下他胳膊上的水刺伤，捏碎了两颗流光飞舞丸，把血止住。

    颛顼和璟都目不转睛地盯着小夭，紧张地等着她的答案。小夭看了一眼璟，笑了笑，对颛顼说：“反正我救他回来时，他就一无所有，我不介意他又变得一无所有。”

    璟如释重负，微微笑起来。

Xiaoyao walked out and stood before Jing, she examined his wounds.

Cang Xuan and Jing both couldn’t take their eyes off Xiaoyao, waiting anxiously for her reply. Xiaoyao took one look at Jing and smiled as she said to Cang Xuan ” When I saved him, he had nothing, I don’t mind if he has nothing again.”

Jing smiled slightly as he breathed a sigh of relief.

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璟依依不舍地上了云辇。

    小夭看璟的云辇飞远了，才转身走向颛顼。

    颛顼扶着她，上了云辇。

    小夭有些累了，闭着眼睛休憩，车厢内寂寂无声。

    颛顼突然问：“你真的想好了？璟不见得是最好的男人，也不见得是最适合你的男人。”

    小夭睁开了眼睛，微笑着说：“你和我都是被遗弃的人，你应该明白，我要的是什么。”

Jing reluctantly got onto the Sky carriage.

Xiaoyao watched his carriage fly far into the distance before turning back to Cang Xuan.
Cang Xuan helped her get onto their Sky carriage.
Xiaoyao is a little tired, she closed her eyes, the carriage was very quiet.

Cang Xuan suddenly asked ” Have you really thought it through? Jing might not be the best man, he might not even be the man who is most suitable for you.”

Xiaoyao opened her eyes, and said with a smile ” You and I have been abandoned before, you should understand, what it is that I want.”

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    颛顼说：“就算他肯放弃涂山璟的身份，但你和我都明白，有些牵绊流淌在血脉中，根本不是想放弃就能放弃，想割舍就能割舍。涂山氏的太夫人是出了名的硬骨头，十分固执难缠，你想过将来吗？”

    “将来如何不取决于我，而取决于他，我只是愿意等他给我个结果。”

    颛顼嘟囔：“也不见你愿意等别人，可见他在你心中还是特殊的。”

    小夭温和地说：“不要担心我！我经历过太多失望，早学会了凡事从最坏处想。你和我都清楚，想要不失望，就永远不要给自己希望。”

Cang Xuan said” Even if he was willing to give up his identity as Tushan Jing, you and I both understand, that some bonds are in the blood and not something that can be given up easily or severed as wished. Tushan Old Madam is infamous for being obstinate and difficult to deal with, have you considered the future?”

“The future does not depend on me, it depends on Jing. I will wait to see what result he will give me.”

Cang Xuan grumbled “I have never seen you willing to wait for someone else, so Jing must be still special to you.”

Xiaoyao said warmly ” Don’t worry about me! I have experienced too many disappoinments and is always prepared to expect the worst. You and I both know, as long as we never give ourselves hope, we won’t be disappointed.”

长相思第16章 但感别时久(5)

小夭已经睡下，半夜里被惊雷吵醒。

    瓢泼大雨，倾盆而下，打在屋顶上，叮叮咚咚响个不停。

    小夭卧听了会儿风雨，迷迷糊糊正要睡过去，突然听到几声鹤鸣，她披衣坐起，打开了门。

    天地漆黑一片，风卷着雨，扑面而来，寒气袭人。

Xiaoyao has gone to bed, she was woken up by the thunder storm in the middle of the night.

The heavy rains poured down, making a din on the rooftops.

Xiaoyao listened to the rain and winds for a while. She nearly fell back asleep when she heard what seemed like some crane calls, she got up and put on a robe and opened the door.

It’s completely dark outside, as the chilling cold air rushed towards her.

长相思第17章 相煎何太急(1)

“璟，你……先进来！”小夭顾不上问璟为何深夜来神农山，推着璟进了屋子。

    小夭让璟坐到熏炉旁，帮他把头发擦干，看他额头上都是细密的伤痕，小夭抚着伤痕，轻声问：“发生了什么事？”

    璟猛地把小夭紧紧抱住，在雨水里泡久了，他的身体寒如冰块。

    小夭默默地依在他怀里。

“Jing, you….come in first!” Xiaoyao couldn’t care to ask Jing why he came to Mount Chenrong at this time of night and pushed him into the room.

Xiaoyao let Jing sit beside the burner and started to dry his hair. She saw little wounds on his forehead, Xiaoyao caressed them and asked softely ” What happened?”

Jing suddenly hugged Xiaoyao tightly, he felt like a block of ice after being soaked in the rain for a long time.
Xiaoyao quietly stayed in his embrace.

长相思第17章 相煎何太急(1)

半晌后，璟说：“奶奶用了**禁忌的蛊咒术，已经被蛊虫反噬。”

    蛊虫反噬，命不久矣。小夭愣了一会儿，不知道该如何安慰璟，轻轻地抚着璟的背。

    璟说：“奶奶要我三日后接任族长，我没有办法再拒绝了。”

    小夭道：“我明白。”

    “我本来打算，不管奶奶同意不同意，我都要和你在一起……可是现在……对不起！”

    “没有关系，真的没有关系！”

After a long while, Jing said “Grandmother used a forbidden poison bug skill, and she is now suffering from its backlash.”

Backlash from a poison bug, there is not long to live. Xiaoyao sat not knowing what to do, not knowing how to comfort Jing, she just gently pat his back.

Jing said “Grandmother wants me to succeed as head of the family in 3 days, I cannot refuse her anymore.”
Xiaoyao said ” I understand.”

“I had planned to stay with you, no matter what Grandmother decides, but now…. I’m sorry!”

“It’s okay, its really ok!”

 

长相思第18章 相煎何太急(1)

    小夭叹息，她不是不难过，可如果璟连奶奶的命都不顾，自私地选择离开涂山氏，和她在一起，那他也就不是小夭喜欢的璟了。

    这一夜，璟没有回青丘。

Xiaoyao sighed, its not that she is not sad, but if Jing disregarded even his grandmother’s life, to selfishly choose to leave the Tushan family just to be with her, then he is not the Jing that she liked.

This night, Jing did not return to Qingqiu.

长相思第18章 相煎何太急(1)

……小夭不禁暗自谢谢父王，让她能名正言顺地出现在青丘，观看璟一生中的盛典。

….Xiaoyao thanked her father in her heart, for letting her properly attend Jing’s once-in-a-lifetime event in his life as Haoling’s representative.

长相思第18章 相煎何太急(2)

璟穿着最正式的华服，先祭奠天地和祖先，再叩谢太夫人，最后登上祭台，从长老手中接过了象征涂山氏财富权势的九尾狐玉印。两位长老把一条白色的狐皮大氅披到了璟身上，这条狐皮大氅据说是用一万只狐狸的头顶皮所做，象征着九尾狐是狐族之王，表明涂山氏可统御狐族。

Jing was dressed in formal attire. He first paid respects to the Heavens and ancestors, thanked the Grand Madam of Tushan, before ascending the altar, to take over the 9-tailed fox jade seal that represented the Tushan family’s wealth and power. The two elders placed a cloak made of a white fox on Jing. It was said that this was made from the fur of 10 thousand foxes, symbolizing that the 9-tailed fox is the king of the foxes, showing that the Tushan family can rule over all foxes.

长相思第18章 相煎何太急(2)

 在他的身后，一只巨大的白色九尾狐出现，九条毛茸茸的尾巴，像九条巨龙一般飞舞着，几乎铺满了整个天空，彰显着九尾狐强大的法力和神通。

在涂山氏子弟一遍遍的叩拜声中，站在白色祭台上的璟显得十分遥远。

小夭有些茫然，从这一刻起，璟必须背负起全族的命运！他，再不是她的叶十七了。

Behind him, a great white 9-tailed fox appeared… its 9 fluffy tails flying like 9 gigantic dragons in the sky, nearly filling up the entire sky, manifesting the great powers and reach of the 9-tailed fox.

As the Tushan family kneeled and chanted their litany of reverence, the Jing who stood on the white altar felt very far away.

Xiaoyao felt a little lost, from this moment forward, Jing will have to bear the fate of his entire clan! He, will no longer be her Ye Shiqi.

长相思第18章 相煎何太急(2)

 幽静的小道，曲曲折折，时而平整，时而坑坑洼洼，看不到尽头所在，就像人生。

    小夭不禁苦笑起来，她害怕孤独，总不喜欢一个人走路，可生命本就是一个人的旅程，也许她只能自己走完这条路。

The quiet little path, winding, sometimes level, sometimes dipping. One cannot see the end of it, just like life.

Xiaoyao can’t help a bitter smile. She is afraid of loneliness, she does not like to walk by herself, but life is a solo journey, maybe she can only finish this road by herself.

长相思第18章 相煎何太急(2)

防风邶戏谑地一笑：“刚才你眼睛里除了涂山璟还能看到谁？”

他的语气活脱脱只是防风邶，小夭自然了许多，不好意思地说：“来观礼，不看涂山璟，难道还东张西望吗？”

Fangfeng Bei joked with a smile “Who else could you see in your eyes just now besides Tushan Jing?”

His tone is exactly Fangfeng Bei, so Xiaoyao became much more natural and replied with some embarrassment ” To attend the Tushan Chief’s succession ceremony, where else should I be looking at instead of Tushan Jing?”

长相思第18章 相煎何太急(2)

防风邶说：“听小妹说璟不愿做族长，他为了取消和防风氏的婚约，在太夫人屋前跪了一日一夜。如果他真能不做族长，以小妹的性子，很有可能会想个法子，体面地取消婚约，可现在璟做了族长，小妹熬了多年的希望就在眼前，她不可能放弃。”

    邶看向小夭：“本以为希望就在眼前，却转瞬即逝，你难过吗？”

    小夭说：“肯定会有一些难过，不过，也许因为我这人从小到大倒霉习惯了，不管发生再好的事，我都会下意识地准备着这件好事会破灭；不管听到再感动的誓言，我都不会完全相信，所以也不是那么难过。”毕竟，连至亲的娘亲都会为了大义舍弃她，这世间又有谁真值得完全相信呢？

Fangfeng Bei said ” I heard from my sister that Jing did not want to become the clan leader. He had knelt in front of the Grand Madam’s room for a whole day to cancel his engagement. If he really won’t become the clan leader, knowing my sister, she would have found a decent way to cancel the engagement. But now Tushan Jing is the clan leader, her years of hope is right before her, she won’t give this up.”

Bei looked at Xiaoyao ” You thought your hope was right in front of you, but it is now fleeting, are you sad?”

Xiaoyao said “I’m definitely a little sad, but maybe I am used to bad luck since I was a child, so no matter what good things happen I’m always subconsciously prepared for them to fall apart; No matter how moving the oaths, I won’t fully believe them, so I am not that upset either. “
After all, even her mother had chose to abandon her for the greater cause, so who is left in this world to be fully worthy of trust?

长相思第18章 相煎何太急(2)

小夭一直觉得赌博和烈酒都是好东西，因为这两样东西能麻痹人的心神，不管碰到多不开心的事，喝上几杯烈酒，上了赌台，都会暂时忘得一干二净。

Xiaoyao always thought that gambling and strong liquor are great things, because these two things can numb a person’s mind, no matter what unhappy things she experienced, she can forget about it momentarily once she downed a few cups of strong liquor and get to a table.

长相思第18章 相煎何太急(2)

 小夭戒备地盯着相柳，慢慢往后退。

    她退进了一个熟悉的怀抱中：“璟？”

    “嗯。”璟搂着小夭，盯着邶，眼中是威慑警告。

    邶身上的杀气散去，嘲笑道：“听说你想退婚，刚成为族长，就嫌弃我妹妹配不上你了吗？”

    璟的杀机也消散：“不是意映不好，而是……”

    小夭抓住璟就跑：“他是个疯子，不用理会他！”

    小夭也不知道她想去哪里，只是下意识地朝着和涂山氏宅邸相反的方向跑去。

Xiaoyao slowly backed away from Xiangliu, as she kept her eyes on him guardedly.

She backed into a familiar embrace “Jing?”
“Yes.” Jing hugged Xiaoyao as he kept an eye on Bei, his eyes full of warning.
Bei’s murderous intent disappeared, as he mocked ” I heard that you wanted to cancel the marriage. Is my sister not good enough for you now that you are the clan leader?”
Jing’s murderous intent also dissipated ” Its not that Yiying is not good, but-“

Xiaoyao grabbed Jing and ran ” He’s a madman, ignore him!”

Xiaoyao didn’t know where she wanted to go, she only subsconciously ran in the opposite direction of the Tushan manor.

长相思第19章 相煎何太急(3)

 小夭微笑着说：“我没打算离开你。”

    “真的吗？”璟并不相信，他太了解小夭了，小夭从小就靠着自己生存，她的心过于坚强独立，也可以说十分理智冷漠，不依赖于任何人与物，即使小夭喜欢他，可一旦她觉得这份喜欢让她难受了，她就会选择割舍。

Xiaoyao said with a smile ” I don’t intend to leave you.”

“Really?” Jing did not believe it. He knows Xiaoyao too well. Xiaoyao had to survive on her own since she was a child, her heart was too strong and independent, even very cold and logical, not relying on anyone or anything. Even if Xiaoyao liked him, but once she felt that this is making her suffer, she will choose to cut him off.

长相思第19章 相煎何太急(3)

因为颛顼和丰隆都等着用钱，璟接任族长的第二日，就随小夭一起回了轵邑。

Because Cang Xuan and Fenglong were waiting for money, Jing left for Zhiyi city with Xiaoyao the next day after his succession as clan leader.

长相思第19章 相煎何太急(3)

 两人站在木樨树下，馨悦问：“小夭，你怎么会舍哥哥，而选璟哥哥呢？我哥哥哪点比他差呢？”

    “哪点都不比璟差，这就像人的吃菜口味，不是以好坏论，只不过看合不合胃口而已。”

As both of them stood under the Osmanthus tree, Xinyue asked ” Xiaoyao, why would you choose Jing over my brother? How is my brother inferior to him?”

“He is not inferior to Jing in any way, its just like how people have dishes they like, there is no good or bad, only how it suits the palate.”

长相思第19章 相煎何太急(3)

“我本来还以为你能做我嫂子呢！”

    “你做我嫂子不是一样吗？长嫂如姐，我还真想有个姐姐疼我呢！”

  
馨悦本来就没生小夭的气，此时更是心软了，有些好奇地问：“你和璟哥哥在一起快乐吗？”

    “有快乐的时候，也有不快乐的时候。”

    馨悦倒是心有戚戚焉地叹气：“和我一样。不过，你可比我惨，防风意映，我想着都替你发愁。我宁可面对你哥哥身边的所有女人，也不愿意面对一个防风意映。”

“I thought you will become my sister-in-law!”
“Isn’t it the same if you become my sister-in-law? They say the elder brother’s wife is like an older sister, I really want an older sister to dote on me!”

Xinyue was not angry with Xiaoyao to begin with, now she felt a soft spot for her and asked with some curiousity ” Are you happy being with Jing? “

“There are happy times, there are also unhappy times.”

Xinyue sighed feeling sorry “I am the same. But, you have it far worse than me. Fangfeng Yiying, I am already worried for you just thinking about her. I would rather face all the women beside your brother than face one Fangfeng Yiying.”

长相思第19章 相煎何太急(3)

馨悦请璟和小夭坐，待他们两人坐下，馨悦只觉眼前的一幕看着眼熟，突然回过味来，不禁笑对丰隆说：“这两人啊，原来在我们眼皮底下已经郎有情妾有意，难怪当日小夭一曲歌谣唱得情意绵绵、撩人心弦。”

    小夭一下子羞红了脸，低下头。

    馨悦不肯饶了她，打趣道：“当年都敢做，今日才知道害臊了？”

Xinyue asked Jing and Xiaoyao to sit down and as they did, Xinyue felt the scene before her very familiar, something suddenly clicked and she smiled at Fenglong “These two, had feelings for each other right under our noses. No wonder that day Xiaoyao’s song was appealing and full of affection.”

Xiaoyao lowered her head and blushed.
Xinyue wouldn’t let it go, and joked ” You dared to do it then but you are shy now?”

长相思第19章 相煎何太急(3)

馨悦这才反应过来自己被璟戏弄了，不禁对小夭恨恨地说：“你如今有了大靠山，我以后是不敢欺负你了。”

    小夭眨巴着眼睛，稀罕地看着璟，她也是第一次看到璟谈笑戏谑的一面。

    丰隆举起酒杯，对璟说：“你总算恢复昔日风采了。”

Xinyue realized Jing had teased her, she turned to Xiaoyao and said ” You now have a big backer, I won’t dare to bully you anymore.”

Xiaoyao blinked in surprise, as she stared at Jing with great surprise, this is the first time she saw the side of Jing who jokes around.

Fenglong raised his glass and said to Jing ” You are finally back to your old self.”

长相思第19章 相煎何太急(3)

小夭本来不打算插手太夫人的事，太夫人身边的人能给她种蛊，自然是巫蛊高手。小夭不认为自己这个半吊子能比对方强，可那人毕竟是璟的奶奶，小夭不可能真的漠不关心。

    小夭说：“我想跟你去看看太夫人。”

    璟知道小夭的毒术几乎冠绝天下，蛊术虽然只看她使用了一次，可能让颛顼束手无策，也绝不一般。璟握住了小夭的手：“谢谢。”

    小夭道：“我不见得能帮上忙，说谢太早了。”

    璟微笑：“我不是谢你做了什么，而是谢你对我的心意。”

    小夭甩掉他的手，嘟着嘴说：“少自作多情，我哪里对你有什么心意？”

    璟笑看着小夭，不说话，小夭红了脸。

Xiaoyao was not going to intervene about the Grand madam’s affairs. If she had someone beside her who was capable of casting the bug, it has to be an expert. Xiaoyao did not think that a dabbler like her would be better, but it is still Jing’s grandmother, she can’t truly remain indifferent.

Xiaoyao said” I want to see Madam Tushan with you.”
Jing knows that Xiaoyao’s poison skill is top in the world. Even though he had only seen her cast poison bugs once, but even Cang Xuan was helpless, so she cannot be ordinary. Jing held Xiaoyao’s hand ” Thank you.”
Xiaoyao ” I may not be able to help, its too soon to thank me.”

Jing smiled ” I am not thanking you because you have done something, but for your thought for me.”
Xiaoyao pulled her hand from his and pouted “Stop flattering yourself, who is thinking for you?”

Jing smiled as he looked at Xiaoyao without saying a word, while she blushed furiously.

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