小夭的相思 : 期待
During this period, Xiaoyao is hopeful.
Their budding romance is finally starting proper with the ‘correct parameters’.
She is Princess of Haoling. He is Tushan Jing.
Now she has regained her real appearance and with it, her self confidence.
Jing also told her clearly that he intends to ask for her hand in marriage from the Haoling King.
36 bottles of green plum wine, in white jade peach blossom bottles.







Xiaoyao can’t change her habits or she don’t want to?
She is the princess now but she still loves the snacks from her days in Qingshui town and the green plum wine that Shiqi made for her.








从瀛州岛分别到现在,从冬到夏,已是半年多的时间,璟只和小夭联系了一次,还是他为了感谢颛顼的款待,在送给颛顼的谢礼中夹带了九壶青梅酒。颛顼虽不知道究竟哪份东西是交给小夭的,也猜到璟这礼肯定不全是给他的。收到礼物后,把小夭叫去,说道:“你们的哑谜我看不懂,自己去挑。”
小夭把九壶青梅酒挑出来,一色的白玉瓶子,绘着一枝绯红的桃花,本是很稀松平常的白玉桃花瓶,小夭却觉得额间好似又有一点温润在辗转。
九瓶酒,随着小夭,从五神山的明瑟殿来到轩辕山的朝云殿。
青梅酒,小夭慢慢地喝,也只喝得还剩最后一瓶,她舍不得再喝,一直留着,把八个已经喝空的酒瓶仔细收好。她很想喝最后一瓶,可她想等璟送来新的酒后,再喝这一瓶。
夜深人静时,小夭会躺在榻上把玩酒瓶,三寸高的酒瓶,放在掌间,盈盈一握。有时,小夭会笑,有时,小夭却为自己心酸。
她等了半年,都再没有璟的消息。
一日晚上,她又在榻上摆弄九个玉瓶,翻来倒去,九个玉瓶躺在白绢上,九枝桃花艳艳盛开,小夭忽然想起了玉山,她在那里等了母亲七十年,最终什么都没等来。这一生,她再不想等待任何人了。
From their parting in Zhiyi city, from winter to summer, it has already been more than half a year, Jing and Xiaoyao only had one communication, and it was when he included 9 bottles of green plum wine with gifts he sent to Cang Xuan to thank him for his hospitality. ( In the drama, Jing sent 9 bottles 4 times ) . Cang Xuan did not know which items are for Xiaoyao since he guessed the gifts can’t all just be for him. When the gifts arrived, he told Xiaoyao ” I can’t tell what riddles you two are playing, pick it out for yourself.”Xiaoyao picked out the 9 bottles of green plum wine, in white jade bottles with a branch of cherry blossoms. The white jade peach bottles looked ordinary, but Xiaoyao seemed to feel a warm and moist feeling on her forehead.
9 bottles of wine, followed Xiaoyao from Mount Wushen to Xiyan’s Zhaoyun Hall. She drank them all very slowly, when she reluctantly kept the last bottle untouched and kept the other 8 bottles carefully.
She really wanted to drink the last bottle but she wanted the new batch of wine to arrive before drinking it.
When its quiet at night, Xiaoyao would lie on her bed and play with the wine bottle. The 3 inches tall bottle, fits perfectly in her hand. Sometimes Xiaoyao would smile, sometimes she would feel sad for herself.She waited for another half a year, but there was no more contact from Jing.
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One night she was playing with the bottles, arranging them on the white silk, 9 branches of peach blossoms are blooming vibrantly, Xiaoyao suddenly remembered Jade mountain, where she waited for her mother for 70 years in vain. In this lifetime, Xiaoyao did not want to wait for anyone anymore.
In the drama, Jing managed to send out 36 bottles to her before he had stopped suddenly.











Xiaoyao, you said you will wait for 15 years… but you can’t even stand to wait half a year..
Immediately after Xiaoyao decided to get rid of the wine bottles, she resumed making poisons again.




小夭开始花更多的时间炼制毒药,夜深人静睡不着时,她在榻上摆弄毒药,边摆弄边思量如何才能把毒药做得更好看。是更好看,而不是更有毒。
她脑中有被天下人尊奉为医祖的炎帝留下的《神农本草经》,高辛和轩辕珍藏的医书随她翻看,小夭并不怀疑自己做的毒药的毒性,她现在喜欢做好看的毒药。看到凤凰花,她琢磨了几日,又花费了几日几夜,做了一朵栩栩如生的小小凤凰花,花色明艳、花香迷人。看到晚霞,她做出了熙彩流金的毒香屑,犹如将潋滟晚霞从天际采了下来。
每一份毒药,都是她的一个念想,一段心情,她把它们做出来,看它们在她手中盛放,再将它们仔细装好,送出去。
小夭猜度着相柳收到这些毒药时,不知道会是什么感觉,会不会骂她变态。
Xiaoyao started to spend more time making poisons. When she can’t fall asleep at nights, she will think about how to make the poisons more beautiful, not more poisonous.She knows the world renowned [ Classics of Herbs ] in her mind, has access to the medical books from Haoling and Xiyan, Xiaoyao has no doubts in her mind about the poison levels of her creations. Now she like to make nice looking poisons. When she saw Poinciana, she pondered for a few days, spent a few day and nights, and made a small life-like Poinciana flower, alluring in sight and fragrance. When she saw the sunset, she made golden layers, like the rippling sunset has been plucked from the sky.
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Xiaoyao wondered when Xiangliu received these poisons, how he would feel, will he scold her for being strange.



小夭的生活突然之间就变得十分忙碌,她要炼制毒药,要练习射箭,当防风邶有空时,她要向防风邶学习射箭,还要陪着防风邶找乐子。
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Xiaoyao’s life suddenly became very busy, she had to refine poisons, practice archery, when Fangfeng Bei is free, she needed to seek him for guidance, and accompany him to look for fun things to do.
不知不觉中,一年多过去了。
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Unconsciously, more than a year went by.





Jing finally went to Zhiyi city.
Xiaoyao and Fangfeng Bei unexpectedly ran into them in the streets.




小夭的身体有点僵,她能感觉到身后还有一人在看着她。
小夭不知道该是什么心情,她跟着防风邶学习箭术已经有十六个月,以涂山氏的力量,以她和防风邶的身份,璟早就应该听闻了她和防风邶的事。或者说,在刚开始,当她还没了解防风邶的随性浪荡时,她不相信防风邶会真正传授她箭术,她也没打算真跟他学,小夭没有抗拒防风邶的接近,只是因为她清楚地知道她和防风邶走到一起的消息会飞进每个世家大族的深宅大院内。璟当然也会听到,而小夭就是想让他听到。小夭不明白自己为什么想这么做,她也懒得去想,反正这么做她觉得高兴,她就这么做了。
后来,小夭发现她误会了防风邶,防风邶真的在教授她箭术,她也开始认真学习。渐渐地,最初的那个目的已不重要。可小夭仍旧在若有若无间等待璟的反应,但十六个月,她真的已经放弃了等待,她只是觉得自己有点可笑。幸亏、幸亏,防风邶让她出乎意料,否则可就不仅仅是可笑,而是可悲了。
但是,就在她已经忘记时,他又突然出现了,并且带着他的未婚妻!
Xiaoyao felt a little stiff, she could feel someone else watching her intently from behind.
Xiaoyao don’t know what she should feel, she had learnt archery from Fangfeng Bei for 16 months, with the reach of Tushan family, with her and Fangfeng Bei’s status, Jing should have known about them long ago. Or rather, before she understood Fangfeng Bei’s casual spontaneity, she did not really believe he would really teach her archery, she did not really intend to learn from him. Xiaoyao did not reject his advances, because she knew clearly that the news of her being with Fangfeng Bei would travel to all the aristocratic families. Jing would also know about it, and Xiaoyao wanted him to know about it. Xiaoyao did not understand why she wanted to do this, she didn’t want to bother to think about it, she just felt happy doing it, so she did it.
Later on, Xiaoyao realized she had misunderstood Fangfeng Bei, and he was really teaching her archery, so she started learning it seriously. Gradually, her earlier objective was no longer important. Xiaoyao had been vaguely waiting for Jing’s reaction, but it had been 16 months, she really given up waiting, she just thought she was a little ridiculous. Fortunately, fortunately, Fangfeng Bei surprised her, otherwise it would not only be ridiculous, but quite sad.长相思第45章 思君恨君君不知(2)
But now, just as she had forgotten him, he suddenly appeared, and together with his fiancée!




颛顼问小夭:“你刚才急急忙忙的,发生了什么事?”
“我刚在街上碰到……涂山璟和防风意映。”
“嗯,他们下午就到了,估计再过几日,丰隆和馨悦也会来。”
“他们怎么都来了?发生了什么事?”
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颛顼说道:“小夭,这是轩辕城!轩辕国的都城!……每个家族的重要子弟隔几年都会特意来轩辕城住一段日子。交好的,自然而然也就常常约好时间一起来。”
小夭沉默,好似很失望,颛顼问:“怎么了?”
Cang Xuan asked Xiaoyao ” Just now you were in a hurry, did anything happen?”
” I just ran into ….Tushan Jing and Fangfeng Yiying in the street.”
“Oh… probably in a few more days, Fenglong and Xinyue will also arrive.”
“Why have they come? Did something happen?”
Cang xuan replied ” Xiaoyao, this is Xiyan City! The capital of Xiyan!…. Every family’s important figures will specially come to live here once every few years. Those who are close, will often arrange to come together.”
Xiaoyao was silent, as if very disappointed, Cang Xuan asked ” What is it? “


按照礼节,以璟和颛顼的交情,璟到了轩辕城后,应该会来拜访颛顼,小夭不知道他哪天会来,可她实在不想等待了,悬着心猜测,随着时间的流逝失望,那种感觉太难受。所以她选择不再等待,逃回了朝云峰,他会不会来、什么时候来,都与她无关。
According to etiquette, Jing should visit Cang Xuan after he arrived in Xiyan city. Xiaoyao did not know which day he will come, but she really did not want to wait anymore, guessing in suspense, becoming disappointed as time passed, this feeling is too painful. So she chose not to wait, and escaped back to Zhaoyun Peak. Will he come, when he comes, will have nothing to do with her.
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黄帝并不在意小夭话语里的讥嘲,忽然说道:“好好选个夫婿吧,在我死之前,我还能保证你嫁给任何一个想嫁的男人。”并尽可能安排她幸福。
小夭压下了那些复杂的感觉,嬉皮笑脸地问道:“不管是谁都可以吗?如果有婚约也可以吗?如果是你的敌人也可以吗?”
Yellow Emperor did not mind the barbs in Xiaoyao’s words, and suddenly said ” Choose a husband. Before I die, I can guarantee you can marry any man you like.” and ensure she will be blissful.长相思第45章 思君恨君君不知(2)
Xiaoyao suppressed her complicated emotions, and asked all smiles ” Anyone is fine? What if this man is engaged? What if this man is your enemy? “





黄帝看向小夭,“你想要个什么样的男人?”也许因为黄帝出身平凡,没有受过世家大族的教育,他说话时,要远比俊帝直接犀利。
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这么直白的话,换成别的女子大概早就脸红了,小夭却没有丝毫扭捏。第一次有人问她这个问题,她也正儿八经地思考了一会儿,“我还没成年就开始扮男人,人家少女怀春时,我也不知道我忙什么呢,大概忙着活下去吧。也许我一个人的时间太长,我一直很想找个人陪伴,不是指嫁人,就是一起生活,分享苦、分享乐,即使吵吵闹闹,至少不用自己和自己说话,可我胆子很小,你想啊,我的亲祖父、亲爹、亲娘都能因为这个那个的原因放弃我,我又能相信谁不会放弃我呢?我和孤苦无依的老者相伴,我收养孤儿,他们需要我,不会抛弃我。”小夭嘿嘿地笑,“人家觉得我心善,其实,只不过因为我懦弱,我和弱小者在一起,觉得自己掌握着一切,被倚靠,不会被放弃,才觉得心安。”
The Yellow Emperor looked towards Xiaoyao “What kind of man do you want?” Perhaps because he came from humble origins, not educated like the aristocratic families, when he spoke, he is always more direct than the Haoling King.
Other women would probably have been embarrassed by such direct words, but Xiaoyao is unfazed. This is the first time anyone asked her this question, so she thought seriously about her reply “I have been acting like a man before I became an adult, when other girls my age were in love, I don’t even know what I was doing, probably trying to survive. Maybe I have been alone for too long. I just want someone to accompany me, I don’t mean get married, just living together, sharing hardships and joy, even if we may quarrel, at least I don’t have to talk to myself. But I am too timid to trust anyone. Think about it, my grandfather, father, mother can all abandon me for various reasons, how can I believe no one will abandon me? I lived with the old and lonel, took in orphans, because they needed me and won’t abandon me.”
Xiaoyao laughed ” People think I am kind, but I am just a coward, I stay with the vulnerable, so that I can feel in control of everything, to be relied on, won’t be abandoned, so that I can feel at ease.”







小夭眯着眼,慢慢地说:“我太害怕拥有后又失去了,如果那样,我宁可从未拥有。除非有一个男人,不管面对任何选择,我都是他的第一选择,不管有任何原因,都不会放弃我,我才愿意和他过一辈子。”
黄帝说:“很难。”
小夭笑起来,“我知道很难啊,所以,我根本不敢去想什么男人,我怕一想就万劫不复。就算……”小夭叹气,“就算心有点乱,我也会努力控制。”
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Xiaoyao narrowed her eyes and said slowly ” I am too afraid of having something and losing it, if that is the case, I’d rather not have it at all. Unless there is a man, no matter what choices he faces, I will always be his first choice. No matter what happens, he will never give up on me, I will be willing to spend my life with him.”
“Its very difficult.”
Xiaoyao laughed ” I know its difficult, so, I don’t dare to think about any man, I am afraid I will lose myself. Even if….” Xiaoyao sighed, “Even if I am restless, I will do my best to control it.”























“你在故意躲着璟吗?”
“这几天,他每天都来找我,我想,他还没有闲到想天天见我。”
颛顼踌躇了一瞬说:“防风邶是妾侍所出,防风家他做不了主,你和他玩可以,但……
先不要和璟闹翻,我现在需要他。”颛顼低下了头,握着缰绳的手,因为用力,有些泛青。颛顼不是没有经历过屈辱,可这一瞬,他觉得最屈辱。小夭握住了他的手,“哥哥,不要难受,这不是什么大不了的事,我会去见璟的,并不勉强,也不是为了你,我其实……其实在对他发脾气。”
“Are you avoiding Jing on purpose?”
“These few days, he have been looking for me everyday, I think, he is not so free that he wants to see me everyday.”
Cang Xuan paused before continuing ” Fangfeng Bei is born from a concubine, he has no say in the Fangfeng household, you can play with him, but…… (skipped the part about him being dangerous and their enemy who shot at them )Don’t fall out with Jing yet, I need him now. ” Cang Xuan lowered his head… Cang Xuan felt very humiliated in this moment.
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Xiaoyao held his hand ” Brother, don’t feel bad, its not a big deal, I will see Jing, its not difficult, and also not for you, I am….actually just mad at him.”
Xiaoyao said she doesn’t think of romance like young girls. She did put in alot of thought about what romance means and what defines it.
To be someone’s first priority.
To dress up for someone.
To always be in touch, to be missed.


小夭一个激灵,彻底清醒了,那从容沙哑的声音,不是璟,还能是谁?
真奇怪,每一次听他和别人说话,总觉得和自己认识的璟不是一个人。和别人说话时,他说假话也十分从容淡定,而和她说话,小夭总觉得他有些笨嘴拙舌。
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Xiaoyao woke with a start. That calm hoarse voice, who else if not Jing?
Its very strange, every time she hears him talking to someone else, it feels like the Jing she knew is a different person. When he talks to others, he is very calm even when lying, but when he talks to her, Xiaoyao always felt that he is awkward and clumsy.










小夭觉得身后一直有目光凝着,沉甸甸的,压得她几乎要走不动,可她赌气一般,偏是要做出脚步轻快、谈笑风生的样子。
走到门口时,小夭突然想起早上答应过颛顼的话,停住了步子。刚才也不知道怎么了,一心就是想和璟对着干。
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Xiaoyao felt eyes on her watching her, so heavy that she almost could not move, but she was piqued, so she purposely acted like she was light-footed and cheerful.
As she reached the door, Xiaoyao suddenly remembered her promise to Cang Xuan and stopped. She didn’t know why she chose to act out with Jing just now.



璟坐在榻上,身子一动不动,也不知道在想什么。
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小夭在心里对自己说:他是涂山璟,不是破破烂烂没人要的叶十七。
Jing sat at the table, very still, she couldn’t tell what he is thinking.
Xiaoyao told herself ” He is Tushan Jing, not the tattered Ye Shiqi that nobody wants.”


璟眉眼清润,唇角带着微微的笑,虽然笑意有些苦涩,却是真的一点没动气,就好似不管小夭做什么,只要她在这里,他就心满意足。
小夭突然觉得很泄气,就如对着云朵,不管怎么用力,人家就是不着力。
Jing’s eyes are bright and clear, there is a very slight smile on his lips, even though there is a tinge of bitterness in his smile, but he is really not angry, its like no matter what Xiaoyao did, as long as she was here, he is content.Xiaoyao suddenly felt very dispirited, its as if you are hitting a cloud, no matter how hard to you try, it is just no use.
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小夭正拿着珠子,凑在唇边欲含不含,听到这话,忙把珠子收到手里,可拿在手里,也觉得那珠子变得滚烫。
璟也有些局促,不过他怕小夭贪玩出事,低声叮嘱道:“最长的一次,我在水里游了一日两夜,不过我有灵力,安全起见,你最好不要超过十个时辰。”
小夭低低嗯了一声。璟喜静不喜动,为了测试珠子,居然在水里游了一日两夜。
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Xiaoyao was holding the bead by her lips about to put it in, when she heard that Jing had tested it, she quickly put the bead back to her hand, but even as she held it, she felt like the bead was now very hot to her touch.
Jing was also uneasy, but he was afraid that Xiaoyao would get too reckless while having fun, so he emphasized in a low voice ” The longest time, I could swim for a day and two nights but I have spirit power. To be safe, you should not swim for more than 20 hours.”
Xiaoyao acknowledged in a low voice. Jing liked to be sedentary, in order to test the bead, he actually swam in the waters for a day and two nights.















“我没有不舒服,我只是有点恨你。”每一次,她刚狠下心,他总有办法让她心软。难道只是因为她把他捡回家,救了他,她就对他狠不下心了?
“对不起,我知道我不该出现!”璟完全不知道小夭那百转千回的心思,他只知道,小夭现在很不高兴,刚才和防风邶在一起时很高兴。
小夭恼得把手里的珠子砸到他身上,“你就是个大傻子,真不知道那些人为什么觉得你精明。”
“I am not unwell, I just hate you a little.” Every time she made up her mind to give up on him, he always had a way to soften her. It can’t be that just because she picked him home, saved him, she can no longer harden her heart against him?
“I’m sorry, I know I should not show up!” Jing has no idea about Xiaoyao’s lines of thought, he only knew, Xiaoyao is very upset now, and she was very happy when she was just with Fangfeng Bei.Xiaoyao was so angry she threw the bead at him ” You are such a big fool, I really don’t understand why people say you are clever!”
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璟看在眼内,心急跳了几下,忙低下了头。
小夭说:“我在学习箭术,防风邶愿意教我,所以走得比较近。”
璟心里一下子盈满了喜悦,微笑着说:“不用解释,现在我也没资格要求你解释。刚才,你回来了,已经足够。”
可她刚才回来却不是为了璟,而是为了颛顼!小夭心里十分压抑,她和璟之间也要利用与被利用吗?
Jing saw her keep the necklace, his heart leaped a few times, and he hastily lowered his head.
Xiaoyao said ” I am learning archery, Fangfeng Bei is willing to teach me, so we got closer.”
Jing’s heart suddenly filled with joy, and he said with a smile ” You don’t have to explain, right now I have no position to ask for it. Just now you came back, that is enough for me.”
But she came back not for Jing but for Cang Xuan! Xiaoyao’s heart is very heavy, is her relationship with Jing going to be exploitive as well?











璟温和地说:“如果只是这个要求,你根本不必开口。其实,我和丰隆这次来,是有事想和颛顼商谈。”
“如果没事商谈,你就不来了?”小夭咬着唇,蹙着眉。
璟的心急跳了一下,有点迟疑地说:“本来丰隆想让我等他一起来,但我……等不及,先来了。”
“这也叫先来?我到轩辕城已经二十个月了。”
Jing said warmly, “If its this request, you don’t even have to say a thing. Actually, Fenglong and I came this time, is to discuss something with Cang Xuan.”“If there is nothing to discuss, you wouldn’t have come?” Xiaoyao bit her lip with a frown.
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Jing’s heart made a leap, and he said hesitantly ” Fenglong wanted me to wait for him to come together, but I couldn’t wait, so I came sooner.”
“You call this coming sooner? I have already been in Xiyan City for 20 months.”
璟翻来覆去思索小夭的这句话,觉得小夭这句话的意思应该是认为他来得晚了,可又不太相信小夭是这个意思,他不得不一个字一个字地揣摩,简直恨不得求小夭再说一遍,让他再分析一下语气。
小夭看璟默不作声,叹了口气,起身要走。
璟一把抓住她,结结巴巴地问:“小夭,你、你、你……想见我?”
小夭看着他,璟不安地说:“我知道我有些笨,如果误会了,你、你别生气。”
小夭好似又看到了回春堂里的十七,她一下子心软了,柔声问:“你想见我吗?”
璟重重点了下头,正是因为思念入骨,所以他反复思考后,想出了个法子,先说服了丰隆,现在又拉着丰隆和馨悦万里迢迢赶到轩辕城,来说服颛顼。
小夭不满地质问:“那你为什么不来?”
“有些事要做。”
小夭叹气,“你真的那么笃定,我不会让别的男人走进我心里?”
璟摇了下头。不笃定,就是因为完全不笃定,所以他才想出了这个几乎算是釜底抽薪的法子。
小夭无奈了,“你……好笨!”
Jing turned Xiaoyao’s sentence over in his mind, and thought Xiaoyao’s meaning should be thinking that he came late, but he couldn’t quite believe that was what she meant, he had to analyze word by word, and its all he could do to ask Xiaoyao to repeat herself so that he can analyze her tone when she said it.
Xiaoyao saw that Jing was silent, sighed and got up to leave.
Jing caught her, and stammered ” Xiaoyao….you…you….wanted to see me?”
Xiaoyao looked at him, Jing said uneasily “I know I am a little dumb, if I misunderstood, you… don’t be angry.”
Xiaoyao seem to see Rejuvenation Hall’s Shiqi, she instantly relented, and asked gently ” Did you miss me?”
Jing nodded his head seriously, its precisely because he missed her so much, he came up with a plan after alot of thought, to first persuade Fenglong, and now he dragged Fenglong and Xinyue to Xiyan city, to persuade Cang Xuan.Xiaoyao asked grudgingly ” Then why didn’t you come?”
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“I had things to do.”
Xiaoyao sighed ” Are you so sure that I won’t let other men into my heart?”
Jing shook his head. He is not sure, its because he is completely unsure, so he thought up what is probably a drastic plan.
Xiaoyao said helplessly ” You…. are so dumb!”






















璟根本顾不上体验是什么滋味,紧张得脸都白了,“不、不是我。我、我不是。”想坐起来,却怎么都起不来。
小夭扑哧一声笑了出来,抱着璟翻了个身,“我知道不是你,你肯定中毒了,都让你小心了!”
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Jing had no time to think about this experience, he was so nervous that the blood drained from his face ” No….its not me… I… I didn’t…”
Xiaoyao burst into laughter as she held Jing and flipped over ” I know its not you, you are poisoned, told you to be careful!”






璟的脸也有些麻,只能一点点地喝,一时间,两人都有些失神。在清水镇时,小夭这么喂他吃饭喝水,喂了小半年。
璟没说话,静静地倚在小夭怀里。小夭也没放下他,依旧抱着他。
过了很久,小夭问:“你能动了吗?”
璟闭着眼睛,不吭声,好像仍然动不了。
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Jing’s face is a little numb, he could only drink it little by little. For a while, both of them became a little distracted. In Qingshui town, Xiaoyao also fed him food and drink like this, for almost half a year.
Jing did not say a word, just leaned quietly in Xiaoyao’s arms. Xiaoyao didn’t lay him down either, and continued to hold him.
After a long while, Xiaoyao asked ” Can you move already?”
Jing closed his eyes, not making a sound, and seemed like he still couldn’t move.

So Xiaoyao kept the other handkerchief? Very sneaky.




In the novel, Xiaoyao is even worried that his family won’t like her.
小夭忽然有些担心,“我杀的那只九尾狐妖不会是你们的亲戚吧?”
“只怕是。”九尾狐本就稀罕,有数的那几只九尾狐妖的确都是涂山氏或远或近的亲戚。
“啊?”小夭的嘴巴张着。
璟忍不住笑起来,“亲戚归亲戚,他做了那样的事,是咎由自取,就算说到奶奶那里去,你也占着理。”
小夭拍胸口,“你要吓死我!”
Xiaoyao suddenly became worried ” The nine-tailed fox demon I killed is not your relatives is it?”
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“I’m afraid so.” Nine tailed foxes are rare, the nine-tailed fox demons are usually either close or far relatives.
“Ah?” Xiaoyao gaped.
Jing couldn’t help laughing ” Even if he is related, he deserved what he got for doing something like this. Even if it reaches Grandmother, justice is on your side.”
Xiaoyao pat her chest ” You nearly scared me to death!”









Wig constraint – Xiaoyao’s obsession with Jing’s hair is more obvious in the novel
小夭解开了他束发的玉冠,让他一头乌发散开。她的手探到他头发里,从头顺到尾,只觉一手软滑,比绸缎还柔顺,小夭问:“现在是静夜还是兰香给你洗头?”
“都不是。”
“你还有别的近身服侍的人?”小夭简直想把他的头发揪下来了。
“不习惯,我自己洗。”
小夭转怒为喜,轻抚着他的头发,璟犹如被抚摸的小猫,很舒服惬意的样子。
Xiaoyao released his hair crown and let his hair fall down. She reached into his hair, from the top to the end, and her hand felt a softness that was smoother than silk. Xiaoyao asked ” Is it Qingye or Lanxiang who washes your hair now?”
“Neither.”
“You have other attendants?” Xiaoyao almost wanted to pull his hair.
“I am not used to it, I do it myself.”
Xiaoyao’s fury turned into glee, as she gently stroked his hair, Jing is like a cat being caressed, looking very comfortable.小夭抿着唇角偷偷笑了一会儿,对璟说:“上次在海上,你趴在栏杆上,头发散在背上,我就想摸一下。”
璟唇边绽开笑意,想睁眼看她,小夭盖住了他的眼睛,“别,就这样。”他睁开了眼睛,她会不好意思。
璟很听话地闭着眼睛。
小夭乐此不疲地玩着他的头发,拿起他的头发在鼻端嗅嗅,也是她喜欢的药草香。小夭自言自语般地念叨:“好久没给你洗头了,下次我给你洗头吧,用槿树的叶子,清晨摘下,泡上一上午,下午时洗,再趁着太阳的余热晾干头发,闻起来是阳光青叶的味道。”
璟微微地笑着,“好。”
Xiaoyao quietly smiled to herself, and told Jing ” The last time at sea when time you leaned on the railing and your hair fell on your back, I wanted to touch it then.”
Jing’s lips broke into a smile and he wanted to open his eyes to look at her, but Xiaoyao covered his eyes and said ” Don’t, just stay like this.” If he opened his eyes, she would feel shy.
Jing obediently kept his eyes closed.Xiaoyao played with his hair tirelessly, took up a lock and sniffed it. Its also the medicinal scent that she liked. Xiaoyao said almost to herself “Its been a long time since I have washed your hair. Next time I will wash your hair for you, using hibiscus leaves, plucked at down, soaked for half a day, wash in the afternoon, and drying in the afternoon sun, it will smell like sunshine and plants.”
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Jing smiled ” Alright.”


小夭问璟:“你什么时候离开轩辕城?”
“明天。”
“明天?”小夭真不知道自己心里是什么滋味了。
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Xiaoyao asked Jing ” When are you leaving Xiyan city?”
“Tomorrow.”
“Tomorrow?” Xiaoyao didn’t know what she is feeling now.





小夭忍不住打了个哈欠,璟坐了起来,“小夭,你累了,睡一会儿。”
小夭觉得怀里空落落的,璟伸手推她,“听话。”
小夭的确是很疲乏,无力抗争,顺着璟的力道倒在了榻上,小夭拽拽璟,“你躺下,我要摸你的头发。”
璟侧身躺下,小夭的手指卷着他的发丝绕来绕去,“是不是明天我睁开眼睛,你就不见了?”
“你到中原后,我来看你。”
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Xiaoyao couldn’t help a yawn, Jing sat up ” Xiaoyao, you are tired, sleep a while.”
Xiaoyao felt that her arms were now empty, Jing reached out and gave her a push , “Be obedient.”
Xiaoyao is really very tired, with no strength to resist, she laid down on the bed following Jing’s push, Xiaoyao tugged Jing ” You lie down too, I want to touch your hair.”
Jing laid on his side, Xiaoyao’s fingers entwined his hair ” Will you be gone when I open my eyes tomorrow? “
“When you come to the Central plains, I will come see you.”


小夭坐起,想去拿绢帕,觉得手上有什么,她低头一看,竟是一缕青丝,柔软地缠绕在她指间。估计是璟要离去时,不想她醒,索性把头发割断了。
小夭看着指间的发丝发了会儿呆,直挺挺地躺倒。这会儿,已不知他人在哪里了,却留下一缕青丝,乱她心思。
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Xiaoyao sat up, wanting to get the handkerchief, felt something in her hand and looked down, its actually a lock of his hair, softly entwined in her fingers. Probably when Jing was leaving, he cut his hair in order not to wake her.
Xiaoyao looked at the hair wrapped in her fingers in a daze, and fell back onto bed.
She is on the bed, covered with a blanket but he didn’t remove her earrings lol
I laughed when she called for Jing in her room in the morning. If he had stayed the night, didn’t she know Cang Xuan would have …ahem…









Just as Jing dared to hope that one day they can be together, she too was hoping for the same.
Even after Xiaoyao had declared that she would no longer wait for him, she couldn’t help counting down the days until she saw him again. Just running into him was enough to ignite the embers in her heart into a jealous fire.
Xiaoyao had avoided thinking about Jing. He is the one who would cause her to feel restless, upset and distracted. She threw herself into making poisons again right after she decided not to keep her empty wine bottles. This time instead of making them more poisonous which helps Xiangliu’s cultivation, she made them into beautiful pieces of art instead. Were her poisons the messages she could not send to Jing? The Phoenix flowers that grew around her, the views that she saw… Back in Qingshui, she and Jing shared her love for wildflowers and spent hours together just watching the world go by. She even thought to herself that Xiangliu would think she was mad for sending him such things, but she was too proud to ask Cang Xuan to reach out to Jing on her behalf.
Xiaoyao may hide her feelings from Jing, at times confusing him with her words and actions, but in other ways, she also seeks to be honest with Jing. She did not want to feel like she was lying to him or making use of him, especially when Cang Xuan was concerned.
She was not touched that Jing spent a great deal to gift her a rare gem that can help her to swim in the sea. What moved her was how he did something which he did not enjoy, for her.
In the end all she wanted was for Jing to contact her. That was why she accepted his gift ( whispers: token of love ) so readily, even before his engagement is officially cancelled.
After this ‘date’, they would have another long wait before seeing each other again.


