小夭的相思 : 焦虑
During this period, Xiaoyao is anxious about regaining her real appearance.
How did she live for hundreds of years, not knowing how she really looked like? The very basic ‘sense of self’ we feel when we look in a mirror, Xiaoyao can’t know this. She was ‘incomplete’ until she gets her real appearance back.
She felt very insecure and can’t help being worried if everyone will be disappointed in her even after reassurances from Jing and Cang Xuan.
小夭看颛顼不说话，心中黯然，很快又释然了，再难看也是真实的我！
长相思第32章 所谓伊人，在水一方(2)
Xiaoyao looked at Cang Xuan without words, feeling dispirited, but she quickly felt at ease, no matter how ugly it’s the real me!
十七低声道：“其实，我知道不管你是谁，你都是你，可有些事情毕竟越来越复杂了。”
小六挑眉，睨着十七，“怎么？你怕了？”
十七微微笑着，“我一直都怕，有了念想自然会生忧虑，有了喜爱自然会生恐惧，如果不怕倒不正常。”
晕黄灯光下的十七温暖、清透、平和，小六的心也温暖。小六笑嗔：“听不懂你说什么。”
Shiqi said in a low voice “I know no matter who you are now, you are still you. But things have become very complicated now.”
Xiaoliu asked with a raised brow ” Why? Are you scared now?”
Shiqi replied with a slight smile ” I have always been very scared. When affections arise, fears will naturally follow. Its not normal if there is no fear.”
Under the yellow lighting, Shiqi’s warmth, clarity and calmness, Xiaoliu’s heart also felt warm.
Xiaoliu said ” I don’t get it.”长相思第24章 眉间心上，无计相回避(3)
It’s not that Xiaoyao did not try to make things simpler for herself, but eventually she still agreed to become a Princess of Haoling again for Cang Xuan.
Xiaoyao’s shy smile at Jing’s reassurances.
Jing was there for her during their intense escape and the emotional reunion with her family. They also had been spending every day in the palace together but now that she has settled in, Jing made the difficult decision to leave.
十七的脸色有点变，双手紧紧地握着小六的手。
长相思第26章 惆怅有谁知(2)
小六轻轻地摇了摇手，柔声说：“你安心去吧，十五年，我等你。”
既然那丝牵念没有办法斩断，那就给那丝牵念十五年吧，至于十五年后，那丝牵念是消失，还是织成了网，没有人知道。
Shiqi’s expression changed a little, and he held on tightly to Xiaoliu’s hands.
Xiaoliu lightly shook her hands, and said gently ” Don’t worry, 15 years, I will wait for you.”
Since these feelings cannot be cut, then she will give them 15 years, as for 15 years later, will they disappear or become a net, no one knows.
Xiaoliu is left waiting for the next time they could meet again.
Cang Xuan found her seated, before a game of chess.
In the novel, Jing stayed with her until night time but the chess game was played at a different time.
小六坐在庭院里等着，约摸半个时辰后，十七一个人回来了。
小六问：“我爹说什么了吗？”
“问了几句家里的事情，没说什么特别的话。”
小六道：“现在到天黑还有一段时间，你想做什么？”
“你想做什么？”
“什么都不做，就这么晒着太阳，闻着花香，吃着零食。”
Xiaoliu sat in the courtyard waiting, about an hour later, Shiqi returned alone.
长相思第26章 惆怅有谁知(2)
Xiaoliu asked: ” Did my father say anything?”
“He asked some things about the family, didn’t say anything special.”
Xiaoliu said ” There is some time before nightfall, what do you want to do?”
“What do you want to do?”
“Don’t do anything, just enjoy the sunlight, smelling the flowers, eat some snacks.”
Looking to Cang Xuan for life advice seems very pessimistic lol
In the novel, timeline-wise Xiaoliu went to Zhiyi City for the Autumn games 秋赛.
In drama, there is massive plot changes, due to productions decisions, many things are simplified.
The most significant change is, they did not pass by the blazing desert with the demon inside as they travelled to Zhiyi City. ( important plot point for later but looks like it will not be adapted by drama at all )
Xiaoyao always act uninterested but she wanted to know where Jing is.
小六笑了笑，展着懒腰站起来，“我再去好好睡一觉。”快要出门时，她停住脚步，好似突然想起什么，不经意地问：“涂山家只防风小姐来了吗？”
“璟公子也在。”
小六不在意地“哦”了一声，走出屋子。
长相思第29章 盛会在何时(3)
Xiaoliu smiled and stretched, ” I will go have another nap.” As she was nearly out the door, she stopped as if suddenly remembering something, and asked carelessly: ” Only Ms Fangfeng came?”
“Master Jing is also here.”
Xiaoliu just replied with an unbothered ‘Oh’ and walked out.
熟悉的背影让小六立即认出是璟，小六知道他看不到自己，所以明目张胆地盯着他看。
璟却忽然扭过了头，向着岸上看过来。小六没有动，依旧懒洋洋地坐着，懒洋洋地看着他。小六不知道璟有没有看到自己，只看船渐渐地行远了，一抹天青色渐渐地隐入了熙攘红尘中。
他知道她在赤水城，她也知他在赤水城，可再不能像在清水镇上一样，挥挥手，大叫一声十七，他就会出现在身边。
小六也不知道坐了多久，反正身边晒太阳的人已经换了几拨。又有人走了过来，轻轻地坐在小六身旁，熟悉的药草香淡淡地飘来。小六没有回头，因为知道，即使看到了面孔，也是假的。她微笑地看着船儿行过，心中透着一些若有若无的喜悦。
Xiaoliu recognized the familiar back view immediately as Jing, Xiaoliu knew he can’t see her, so she brazenly stared.But Jing suddenly turned his head and looked over at the shore. Xiaoliu did not move and continued to sit and look at him lazily. Xiaoliu did not know if Jing saw her, only saw the boat gradually moving into the distance, a little smudge of blue that slowly disappeared into the bustling world.
He knows that she is in Zhiyi city, she also knows that he is in Zhiyi city, but its no longer like they were in Qingshui town, where she could just wave, call out to Shiqi loudly, and he would appear by her side.
长相思第29章 盛会在何时(3)
Xiaoliu did not know how long she sat there, the sunbathers have changed a few batches. Someone came over and sat down by Xiaoliu quietly, and a familiar medicinal scent floated over gently. Xiaoliu did not turn her head, because she knew even if she saw the face, it will be fake. She smiled as other boats went by, and intangible joy arose in her heart.
因为知道有人一直在目送着她，本来一个人的路程却好似一直有人相伴，没有孤单，反而一直有一种温暖。
可目送她离开的人，品尝到的只是逐渐的远离，十七选择了把温暖留给她。
长相思第30章 盛会在何时(4)
Because she knew that someone is watching her, the solo journey seemed like there is someone accompanying her, without loneliness, instead there is always warmth.
But the one who watched her leave, only tasted the gradual parting, Shiqi chose to give her the warmth.
Funny segment only from the Autumn Games in the novel
For the finals of the games, Xiaoliu gets a game commentary from 蓐收 Ru Shou and Jing saw them squeezed together and chatting closely.
In the novel, looks like Jing gets more stress from his girlfriend lol
小六忽然觉得有人一直在看她，凭着直觉看过去，是贵宾坐席，因为有低垂的帘幕，看不到人。小六悄声问蓐收：“那边是谁的位置？”
蓐收扫了一眼，“涂山氏。”
小六沉默了一会儿，突然笑起来，喃喃自语：“你又没让我承诺十五年不和男人交往、不和男人说话。”
长相思第30章 盛会在何时(4)
Xiaolilu suddenly felt someone watching her, and looked over intuitively, its the VIP seats and there are curtains blocking. Xiaoliu whispered to Ru Shou
“Whose seats are those?”
Ru Shou took a sweeping glance ” Tushan family.”
Xiaoliu was silent for a while then suddenly smiled and muttered to herself “You didn’t make me promise not to meet or talk to men for 15 years.”
In the drama, Jing had set up the meeting for Cang Xuan to meet Chishui Fenglong, and invited them to Chenrong mansion.
意映并不是小六见过的最美丽的女子……都带着一种女性特有的纤细优雅，那种美丽深深地击中了小六，让做了一两百年男人的小六又是羡慕，又是自惭。
长相思第31章 所谓伊人，在水一方(1)
Yiying is not the most beautiful woman that Xiaoliu have seen….. but she is slender and elegant that only women can be, this beauty made a deep impact on Xiaoliu, made her feel envious and inferior for being a man for over 200 years.
In the novel, Xiaoyao was supposed to decline an invitation to a celebration for Jing and Yiying, organized by Fenglong and Xinyue. In the drama, this had been changed to Jing’s invitation for Cang Xuan to get formally introduced to Fenglong. Jing did not expect Yiying to appear uninvited to his gathering in Zhiyi city, and both scenarios resulted in her walking about by herself.
But Xiaoyao’s feelings are the same and she was still thinking about Jing, so I included this part.
小六挤在人群中，饮酒作乐，可不知为何，总觉得自己好像戴着面具，外在的自己在投入地玩乐，大声地叫、大声地笑，内里的自己却只是冷漠地看着。周围并没有认识的人，她在演戏给谁看？
小六笑，原来自己欺骗自己并不是那么容易。
长相思第31章 所谓伊人，在水一方(1)
Xiaoliu squeezed through the crowds, all drunk and happy, but she did not know why, she felt like she was wearing a mask, outwardly playing, shouting, laughing, but inside she is just watching it all coldly. There is no one who knows her here, who is she acting for?
Xiaoliu smiled, so its not quite so easy to lie to oneself.
Xiaoliu walked around for hours, and the anxiety of becoming a girl again is still weighing on her mind.
Cang Xuan….agaaain…
每次她游水时，侍女们都自觉地散开，帮她守着周围，以防有人冲撞了王姬。四周很安静，小夭常常游着游着就想起了娘，她曾以为她不会再思念娘，可是原来她还是会思念。而且因为被她刻意地压抑，在回到熟悉的环境后，思念来得愈发强烈，可伴随着的却是痛，只要有一分思念，就会有一分痛，只要有一分痛，就会有一分恨。
小夭觉得自己肯定是又寂寞了，她强迫着自己去想些别的事情，游水、游水……她的生命中肯定还有别的有意思的事和游水有关……小夭突然很怀念九命相柳，如果他在，只怕她不会有时间去回忆过去。可是，玟小六已经彻底消失了，以后纵使再见到相柳，只怕他也认不出她了。
Every time Xiaoyao went swimming, the maids will leave and guard her surroundings so that she won’t be disturbed. Its very quiet, and Xiaoyao often thought of her mother as she swam.
She had thought she won’t miss her mother anymore, but it seemed that she would still miss her. And because she had suppressed it intentionally before, now that she is back in familiar surroundings, the yearning came even stronger than before, and along with it came pain. With every bit of yearning, there is a bit of pain, and there will a bit of hate.Xiaoyao thought she must be feeling lonely again. She forced herself to think about other things, there must be something else related to swimming in her life…. Xiaoyao suddenly missed Nine Lives Xiangliu, if he was around, she probably would not have time to think about the past. But Wen Xiaoliu has completely vanished, even if she was to run into him again, he won’t recognize her anymore.
长相思第34章 桃之夭夭，灼灼其华(1)
小夭走过去翻看，真拿了一本打算细看，不过不是父王期待的学习医术，而是要继续研究如何害人。阿念今日这一推，让小夭警醒了很多，她不能懈怠啊！
小夭又开始研究毒药，白日常去找宫里的医师讨教，晚上则去父王身边窝着，每日忙忙碌碌，反倒觉得日子好过了。唯一遗憾的是没有人能让她试毒。一天晚上，小夭在朝晖殿内欣赏着自己新制的毒药，无比遗憾不能下给相柳。
她拿出她的宝贝小镜子，让小镜子重现记忆下的过往之事。
Xiaoyao walked over to flip the book, and really took one to read in detail, but its not what her father had hoped for her to learn medicine, but to continue to research on how to harm others. Nian pushed her today and given her a wake-up call, she can’t afford to slack off!
Xiaoyao begun to research on poisons again, in the day she would ask for advice from the doctors in the palace, at nights she would accompany her father, every day she kept busy, and the days passed much easier. Her only regret is there is no one to test her poisons on.长相思第34章 桃之夭夭，灼灼其华(1)
One night, Xiaoyao was admiring her newly developed poison, feeling great regret that she can’t poison Xiangliu.
She took out her precious mirror, and looked back at the things recorded in the past.
小夭说：“一个不算朋友的朋友。”
俊帝笑道：“我以为你这个时候会惦记涂山家的那只小狐狸。”小夭做了个鬼脸，“也许人家正和未婚妻花前月下，风流快活得很，我又没傻，干吗惦记他？”
俊帝无可奈何地看着小夭，她可真是什么话都敢说。
长相思第34章 桃之夭夭，灼灼其华(1)
Xiaoyao said ” A friend who is not close to me.”
The King smiled, “I thought you will be thinking of the little Tushan fox.”
Xiaoyao made a face” Maybe he is having a very good time with his fiancee, I am not silly, why would I think of him?”
Its probably at least a few months from the time they saw each other in Zhiyi City since autumn has passed into mid-winter.
仲冬之月的第十五日，宾客们云集在五神山的员峤山，看俊帝领着王姬祭祀天地和祖先，以此见证大王姬重归高辛王族。
长相思第34章 桃之夭夭，灼灼其华(1)
On the fifteenth day of the third month of winter, guests all gathered to watch the ceremony of the Princess of Haoling’s return to Haoling.
小夭有些欣喜又有些烦恼还有些紧张，说不清究竟是什么滋味。
“我想换件衣服见客，帮我挑一件好看一点的。”Xiaoyao is a little delighted, worried and a little nervous, she can’t be sure what she is feeling.
长相思第35章 桃之夭夭，灼灼其华(2)
” I want to change to meet a guest, help me pick something that looks nice.”
小夭问：“真的好看？”
长相思第35章 桃之夭夭，灼灼其华(2)
所有婢女齐齐点头，小夭想到这是她第一次以女子容貌见璟，决定要好看不要舒服了。
Xiaoyao asked ” Do I really look nice?”
All the maids nodded in unison, Xiaoyao thought that this is the first time she is meeting Jing as a woman, so she is going for appearance over comfort.
小夭走了几步，觉得累赘，众婢女却一脸惊叹、齐齐拍手，“王姬，快快去见你想见的人吧，管保让他从此再忘不了你。”
小夭脸有点烧，“你们胡说什么？我就是去见一个普通朋友。”
所有婢女都忍着笑，是普通，普通到让王姬肯费心打扮自己。
长相思第35章 桃之夭夭，灼灼其华(2)
Xiaoyao took a few steps feeling cumbersome, but all the maids are clapping exclaiming ” Princess, hurry and meet the person you want to meet, he will never be able to forget you.”
Xiaoyao’s face started burning, ” What nonsense are you all saying? I’m just going to meet an ordinary friend.”
Everyone suppressed their laughter, its ordinary, ordinary to the point that the Princess was willing to dress up.
绕过一丛灌木，小夭看到了站在礁岩上的男子。
他面朝着大海，静静地等候，不知道已经等了多久，也不知道还能等多久。
在这里等她的是叶十七。
小夭心里的那些恼怒渐渐地消失了，只余了喜悦和紧张。
小夭越发放轻了脚步，悄悄地走近他。
长相思第35章 桃之夭夭，灼灼其华(2)
Going past some bushes, Xiaoyao saw the man standing on the reef.
He is facing the sea, waiting quietly; don’t know how long he has waited, don’t know how long more he can wait.
The one who is waiting for her is Ye Shiqi.
Xiaoyao’s anger in her heart gradually disappeared, and only left joy and nervousness.
Xiaoyao started to step lightly and approached him quietly.
小夭憋得好似整个胸腔都要炸开，她的手上已经没有了力气，手指松开，相柳揽住了她的腰，笑指了指自己的唇，他在说，想要新鲜的空气，就自己来吸。
小夭摇头，以前，她是玟小六，她从没把自己当女人，怎么都无所谓，可现在，她做不到。
Xiaoyao was suffocating and its like her chest was about to explode, she no longer has any strength in her hands, and her fingers let go, Xiangliu held onto her waist, and pointed to his lips with a smile, saying if you want fresh air, come get it.Xiaoyao shook her head, in the past, she was Wen Xiaoliu, she never considered herself to be a woman so it didn’t matter, but now, she can’t do it.
长相思第36章 桃之夭夭，灼灼其华(3)
生与死，只是一个简单的选择。
两人的面孔很近，近得几乎鼻尖碰着鼻尖，小夭只需稍稍往前一点，就能贴到他的唇。
可是，她不能！
长相思第36章 桃之夭夭，灼灼其华(3)
Life and death, is only a simple choice.
Their faces were close, very close, Xiaoyao only had to move forward but a little, and she can reach his lips.
But, she can’t!
After Xiangliu left her stranded, Xiaoyao tried to swim back across the sea.
She was so exhausted before she could reach, that she sank beneath the waves.
Xiaoyao in the drama doesn’t hit Jing as often as the novel Xiaoyao heehee
璟不敢还手，却也坚决不后退，“我不会娶她，她其实并不喜欢我，应该也不会愿意嫁给我。”
小夭停止了推搡，“我不信！她为什么会不喜欢你？”
长相思第37章 此情无计可消除(1)
Jing didn’t resist, but he also stood his ground ” I won’t marry her, and she actually don’t even like me, so she shouldn’t be willing to marry me.”
Xiaoyao stopped her pushing, “I don’t believe!” Why won’t she like you?“
….那也难怪防风意映会失望……小夭的心里五味杂陈，有些酸涩难受，又有些高兴，自己都不知道自己究竟在想什么。
长相思第37章 此情无计可消除(1)
Can’t blame Fangfeng Yiying for feeling disappointed…. Xiaoyao’s heart is full of mixed feelings, there is some unpleasant bitterness, but also some gladness, she don’t even know what she is thinking.
“我说的是事实。小夭，我没有想到你是这样的，如果我知道你是这样的……即使在黑暗的地牢里，我也绝不会有勇气说出奢望……”璟的背脊挺得笔直，头却低垂着，犹如一株长在阴暗中、终年见不到阳光的植物…
长相思第37章 此情无计可消除(1)
“I speak the truth. Xiaoyao, I didn’t expect you are like this, if I knew you are like this….. even in the dark prison, I would never have the courage to voice out my extravagant wish…. ” Jing sat straight, but his head lowered, like a plant that grew in the darkness that can’t see the sun all year round…
Xiaoyao now calls him Tushan Jing, not Ye Shiqi.
两人都沉默，尴尬中有丝丝缕缕的羞涩，窘迫中又有淡淡的欣悦。
“小夭……小夭……”颛顼的叫声传来。
两人像做了贼一样，被惊得立即分开。小夭对璟做了个嘘的手势，示意他别出声躲起来。
长相思第37章 此情无计可消除(1)
Both of them became silent, streaks of shyness in the awkwardness, with also some joy in the embarrassment.
“Xiaoyao…. Xiaoyao….” Cang Xuan called out.
The two of them were startled and immediately separated as if they were thieves. Xiaoyao made a sign to Jing to remain silent and to hide.
小夭洗完澡，上好药，吃了点东西，对侍女叮嘱：“我睡两个时辰，记得到时间一定要叫醒我。”
小夭美美地睡了一觉，睡起后，让侍女帮她准备外出的衣服。
小夭说道：“要舒服点的。”话刚说完，想了想，又加了一句道：“也要好看的，既舒服又好看。”
侍女们都低头偷笑…Xiaoyao finished her bath, applied medicine, dined lightly, and instructed the maids ” I will sleep for four hours, you must wake me once the time is up.”
长相思第38章 此情无计可消除(2)
Xiaoyao had a good sleep, and had the maids prepare her clothes for going out.
Xiaoyao said ” I want something comfortable.” As she finished saying that, she added as an afterthought ” Also something that looks nice, comfortable and looks nice.”
The handmaids all lowered their heads and hid their smiles…
颛顼说丰隆明日离开，想来璟也应该是明日清早就会离开。这一别，再见不知道又是何时，所以小夭想在他走前，再见他一面。
长相思第38章 此情无计可消除(2)
小夭本以为璟会休息，没想到他竟然和颛顼他们一道出去了，看来他不想有人知道他昨夜一夜没睡。
没找到人，小夭有些恹恹的，一时又不想回去，只能无聊地去瀛州岛上闲逛。
Cang Xuan said that Fenglong will leave tomorrow, so Jing will most likely also leave tomorrow morning. After this parting, she don’t know when they will meet again, so Xiaoyao wanted to see him one more time before he left.
Xiaoyao thought Jing would be resting, but she didn’t expect him to go out with Cang Xuan and the others, looks like he didn’t want anyone to know he did not sleep at all last night.
Not finding the person she came for, Xiaoyao felt listless and didn’t want to return, she went to walk aimlessly in the city.
Destiny was on Xiaoyao’s side and she ran into them while shopping.
小夭道：“我有些无聊，就随便来逛逛。”说着话，偷偷往璟那边看了一眼，看到他黑眸中洋溢着喜悦，小夭也不禁抿着唇角笑起来。
长相思第38章 此情无计可消除(2)
Xiaoyao said “I felt a little bored, so I came out to shop.” As she spoke, she stole a glance at Jing, seeing the happiness shining from his eyes, Xiaoyao couldn’t help smiling herself.
However, now that she got to hang out with them, she had to face Jing’s fiancee and see the others treating them like a soon-to-be-married couple.
小夭觉得气闷，一口气吃完了碟中的小玉瓜，丰隆立即又帮她夹了一碟。
璟一直沉默，静静地喝着酒，众人大概已习惯他这个样子，都不奇怪。不过，他看似在出神，可每次丰隆或颛顼突然和他说什么，他总能正确地回答，可见他对身边发生的事情一清二楚。
小夭抓了烈酒的酒坛过来，一杯杯地喝着，渐渐地骨头软了，身子如猫一般缩着，一手撑着头，一手端着酒杯。
Xiaoyao felt unhappy, she ate all the jade melon in one go, Fenglong immediately served her another plate.
Jing remained silent, quietly drinking. Everyone seemed used to him being this way and did not think it odd. But even though he looked like he was lost in thought, everytime Fenglong or Cang Xuan said something to him, he could always answer correctly, so it was clear that he knew what is going on around him.Xiaoyao grabbed a jar of hard liquor, started drinking cup by cup, gradually she started to relax, and sat huddled like a cat, one hand supporting her head, another holding her cup.
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酒气上涌，小夭头发沉，两边的太阳穴直跳，胃里也有些翻涌。她知道自己是真醉了，推开璟的手，闭目靠着船舷，等着那股难受劲儿过去。
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The alcohol finally hit her, Xiaoyao’s head felt heavy and started throbbing, and she felt her stomach churning. She knows she is really drunk, pushed away Jing’s hand, she closed her eyes and leaned on the side of the ship, waiting for the worst to pass.
我们之间的约定!! “our promise”!
小夭的指头插进他的头发中，笑着抓他的头发，“我已经看出来了，你是个狡猾的人。就算我想忘记，你也会不停地变着法子提醒我，一边说着不敢奢望，一边却又绝不松手。”
璟的声音很痛苦，喃喃说：“我只是……没有办法……我知道你值得更好的，可是我没有办法……对不起……”
小夭忙说：“我明白、我明白。”
璟低声说：“你不明白。”
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Xiaoyao put her fingers into his hair, and smiled as she grabbed his hair ” I realize you are a cunning man. Even if I want to forget, you will keep reminding me, you say you don’t dare to dream of having me, but you refuse to let me go.”
Jing’s voice was full of pain, he murmured “I just….can’t help it.. I know you deserve better, but I can’t help it… I’m sorry..”
Xiaoyao hurriedly said ” I understand, I understand.”
Jing said in a low voice ” You don’t understand.”
Too bad they can’t mess up the wig for the drama, because these lines when spoken in the novel as she played with his hair, compared to the serious delivery in the drama made the mood very different. The drama did manage to send the mood back into the right path, by letting Xiaoyao be pleased with Jing’s words and became playful again.
海风轻轻吹动，海潮轻轻摇动着船，他望着天上的圆月，只想就这么过一夜。
璟低头看着熟睡的小夭，手指轻轻地抚摸着她脸上的伤痕，又一点点用指尖描摹着她的轮廓。一遍遍描摹，直到纵使他被剜去双目，依旧能清晰地看见她。
一个多时辰后，小夭轻轻动了下，喃喃叫：“十七。”迷迷糊糊地睁开眼睛。
璟微笑地看着她，小夭说：“我好像睡了一觉。”
The sea breeze blew gently, the waves rocked the ship gently, he looked at the full moon above, and just thought the night could pass like this.
Jing looked down at Xiaoyao who was fast asleep, his finger stroking the wound on her face gently, and used his finger tip to trace her profile. He traced again and again, until even if his eyes were removed, he will still be able to see her clearly.After almost two hours, Xiaoyao moved, and murmured ” Shiqi.”
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She blearily opened her eyes.
Jing looked at her with a smile, Xiaoyao said ” I think I fell asleep.”
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璟又看了一会儿小夭，要把帷帽给小夭戴上，小夭抓住了他的手，不让他戴，咬着唇，闭上了眼睛。
璟轻轻地吻住了小夭的额心，直到不得不离开，他才抬起头……
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Jing gazed at Xiaoyao for a moment, he was about to put Xiaoyao’s hat back on, Xiaoyao caught his hand and stopped him, she bit her lip and closed her eyes.
Jing softly kissed her forehead, until the very last moment before he raised his head…
In the novel Xiaoyao keeps pressuring Jing to kiss her? LOL
Its alright Xiaoyao, we understand too.
The epic scene we did not get to see:
小夭一抬头，却看见璟的头发刚被她十指插进去，抓得乱七八糟。此时连提醒璟都已经来不及，更何况整理头发，小夭的脸色变了。
却看璟一边站起，一边随手解开了束发的发冠，满头青丝如银河泻九天，披落在他背上，飘散在海风中。他侧倚着船栏，几分慵懒、几分随意地看着东边天空初露的晨曦。
小夭一瞬间看得心如鹿撞，怦怦直跳。颛顼叫了她好几声，她都没有听到，惹得所有人都看着她。
Xiaoyao raised her head, but she saw Jing’s hair all messed up by her just now. She couldn’t even remind Jing in time now, let alone fix it, Xiaoyao’s face paled.
But as Jing stood up, with one move he released his hair crown, his head of hair cascaded down, fell onto his back and blew freely in the sea winds. He leaned against the boat railing, lounging as he watched the first light of the dawn in the eastern sky.长相思第40章 此情无计可消除(4)
Xiaoyao suddenly felt her heart flutter and pound. Cang Xuan called her a few times, but she did not hear him, and everyone stared at her.
璟很快就察觉了，垂下眼眸，唇角抿着笑意。小夭也笑，虽然不能说一句话，甚至不能站得太近，可又觉得心意相通，很亲密。
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Jing felt her gaze soon, and lowered his eyes, the corners of his lips rose slightly. Xiaoyao also smiled, even though neither can say a word, they could not even stand too closely, but it felt like they are connected, and very intimate.
小夭困惑地问：“你们男人是如何判断出一个女人是真心还是假意呢？即使是真心，又如何知道这真心是哪种真心呢？要知道真心也分很多种，有的真心要一点波折没有；有的真心能经历八十难，八十一难就不行了；有的真心只能共贫贱；有的真心只能共富贵；有的真心平时看不到，大难时却显了；有的真心平时相敬相护，大难时却飞鸟各投林。这世间很多白头到老的男女，其实并不见得是真的一心一意、坚不可摧，只是没有碰到考验罢了。”
Xiaoyao is puzzled : ” How do you men determine if a woman is sincere or not? Even if she is sincere, how do you know which kind of sincerity it is? There are so many types, some are sincere but can’t take any ups or downs; some can take up to 80 trials, but can’t take on the 81st; Some sincerity can only take hardship together; some sincerity can only share good times; some cannot be seen usually but will show in face of disaster; some will be usually respectful and protective, but in the face of danger they will go separate ways. There are many men and women who spent a lifetime together, but it might not be really whole-hearted or unbreakable, its just that they just have not gone through any ordeals.颛顼笑起来，“你这一串子话绕得我脑袋都疼了。你要问我具体如何判断，我也没什么可说的，不过是感觉罢了。一颗冷心、一双冷眼，经历得多了，自然看得分明。”
小夭问：“万一看错了呢？万一错把只能经历八十一难的真心，看作了百折不变、千险不改的呢？”
颛顼温柔地说：“保证不会犯错的方法你知道的，就是一颗冷心。”
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Cang Xuan laughed ” Your barrage is giving me a headache. If you ask me how to determine, I can’t really say, except its through feeling. A cold heart, a cold pair of eyes, once you experienced enough, you can clearly tell.”
Xiaoyao asked ” What if you misjudged? What if you were wrong and thought a sincerity which could only go through 81 trials and thought it was unwavering and indomitable?
Cang Xuan said gently ” There is a way to not make a mistake, is to have a cold heart.”
Jing could still look for Xiaoliu back in Qingshui town after he returned to his position as Tushan Jing, but Xiaoyao is no longer accessible now that she has become the Haoling Princess. They two have to either meet in secret, or act distant before other people.
Xiaoyao is still unconvinced that Fangfeng Yiying really disliked Jing, because she can’t accept that people will think poorly of him.
Now Xiaoyao and Jing can use ‘later’, ‘next time’, because they know they want to see each other again. But each time they meet, each parting also becomes harder. Xiaoyao always plays down her feelings for Jing before others, but she can’t deny to herself how he makes her feel.
Next, Xiaoyao’s Lovesickness : The Hopeful Phase
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