Lost You Forever S1 E13

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Drama skips alot of Xiaoliu’s thoughts, since this part connects to the story, I will include it to fill up the ‘missing time’.

等闲了下来,小六才想起忘记问相柳上次射杀轩的是不是璟的未婚妻,如果是防风意映,那么为什么她会帮相柳射杀轩?难道防风氏和神农义军有关系?还是其实是相柳帮防风意映?相柳不是说过他闲暇时会做做杀手吗?

After she finally had time to think, Xiaoliu remembered that she had forgotten to ask Xiangliu if Jing’s fiancee was behind Xuan’s assassination. If it was Fangfeng Yiying, why would she help Xiangliu to kill Xuan? Could it be that Fangfeng family and Chenrong army have connections? Or Xiangliu is the one who is helping Fangfeng Yiying? Xiangliu had mentioned that he works as a killer when he is free.

小六翻来覆去地琢磨,几乎寝食难安。

    几天之后,他忽然想通了,轩已经走了,不管是不是防风意映射杀他,都没有意义。何况那些大家族之间盘根错节的恩恩怨怨,根本不是小六所能理解的,只要肯定不是璟想杀轩就行。

Xiaoliu kept mulling over this in her mind, and could barely eat or rest.

After a few days, she suddenly came around. Xuan is already gone, no matter if it was Fangfeng Yiying who had tried to shoot him, it is now meaningless. And those big clans have complicated entanglements with one another, its not something she can understand, so as long as she had confirmed that Jing is not the one who tried to kill Xuan, then its all good.


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In Haoling, Xuan had fully recovered and met his master, the King of Haoling.

Xiaoliu held a family gathering for Mu, Pimply, Chuntao, Skinny and Sang Tian er.

They talked and laughed, but only Sang Tian er guessed that something was wrong in the cheerful atmosphere. Perhaps she remembered Shiqi had thought Xiaoliu had left for good, and wondered if this was farewell.

The King of Haoling was interested in Wen Xiaoliu after hearing about his skills with poisons and bugs. He asked Cang Xuan to bring this mysterious physician to meet with him.

Xiaoliu is packed and ready to leave. She takes one last look about Rejuvenation hall.

Tushan Jing cheerfully appeared with another bunch of Ice crystal wind chimes.
Didn’t he just gift her two hahah this boy and his manufactured excuses to drop by to see her.

She was cold and harsh with him again after he noticed she was packed and ready to leave.
But he told her he was willing to leave with her.

璟垂下了眼眸,唇紧紧地抿着。小六非常熟悉他这样的姿势,再狠不下心骂他,扭过了头,不去看他。

Jing lowered his eyes, tightly pursing his lips. Xiaoliu is very familiar with this look, and she didn’t have the heart to continue to scold him. She turned her head, away from him.

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Ice Crystal wind chimes are more than enough to cool off Xiaoliu’s little courtyard. She is now no longer hot and bothered by the summer weather, but by Tushan Jing’s promise to leave with her no matter where she is going.

She was all packed and it would seem that she was not waiting to bid the others farewell, so why did she take a nap instead of just leaving? If she had been just a little quicker, perhaps Cang Xuan would have narrowly missed her.

Thinking Jing had came back again, she told him to leave.

To her shock, Cang Xuan was the one in her courtyard now.

Xiaoliu lost strength in her legs after hearing the ‘royal invitation’. She already knew who his master ( shifu, not owner) was – her father, King of Haoling.

小六怔怔地看着颛顼,颛顼负手而立,眉眼间有俯瞰苍生、不容置喙的威仪。小六竟然觉得无限欣慰,他这样很好,会平易近人、温和谈笑,也会翻脸无情、铁血冷酷,只有这样,他才能在那个位置好好地活着。

Xiaoliu looked at Cang Xuan in a daze, Cang Xuan stood with his hands behind his back, with a regal air, above all things. Xiaoliu actually felt very gratified. This is very good for him, he can get close to others and laugh warmly, he can also turn ruthless and cold. Only this way, can he survive at his position and standing.

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Meanwhile, someone started a side quest to forge a special bow.

A cute and obviously gifted Jintian blacksmith with a sassy attitude, told the man in the iron mask that she does not craft any weapon that she has no interest in.

Handing over what appeared to be a Blacksmith recipe for an epic weapon that she approved of, Xiangliu told her that he will collect the rare materials needed for the crafting of this weapon.

Xiaoliu had not even shown any interest in archery yet, so was this a gift prepared very much in advance, or he had plans that changed along the way?

Back in Rejuvenation hall, Xiaoliu weighed her options for escape.

She concluded that Xiangliu is the only one who can go up against both countries since he is part of the rebel army and she tried to signal to him that she needed help by hitting her leg with some items around her room.

She tried a tortoise shell hammer of sorts, and gave up the idea after she heard that the town is now locked-down.

但现在是高辛俊帝和轩辕王子要他,涂山璟帮了他,就是与高辛和轩辕过不去,几乎可以说是与整个天下为敌,涂山璟愿意为一个玟小六与黄帝和俊帝敌对吗?

But now its the King of Haoling and Prince of Xiyan who wants him, if Tushan Jing helped him, that will be going up against those two countries, and almost be at odds with the whole world. Will Tushan Jing be willing to make enemies of the King of Xiyan and Haoling for Wen Xiaoliu?

    念头一旦腾起,小六完全无法再抑制,甚至比想逃离清水镇更迫切地想知道璟究竟在天下和他之间会选择哪个。小六看向屋檐下的冰晶风铃,唇畔慢慢地浮起一个冷笑,选择哪个,去试试不就知道了?

Once the idea arose, Xiaoliu can no longer suppress it. Who Jing will choose between her and the entire world, became even more urgent than escaping Qingshui town.

Xiaoliu looked towards the Ice crystal wind chimes hanging on the eaves, and a cold smile slowly rose. To know his choice, won’t she know after testing?

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Xiaoliu finds Sang Tianer in the hall, and bids her farewell.

小六的笑僵在脸上,盯着璟,“如果一旦开始逃,就是违抗俊帝旨意,帝王威严不容冒犯,颛顼肯定会带人追击。如果我们执意反抗,他肯定会下杀手,一路之上必危险重重,即使侥幸逃脱了,你可就同时得罪了轩辕国和高辛国。”

Xiaoliu’s smile froze on her face, she kept her eyes fixed on Jing ” Once we start running, we are defying the King of Haoling. The King is not to be offended, Cang Xuan will surely pursue us. If we insist on resisting, he will kill us, there will be countless dangers along the way. Even if we escape by luck, you will offend both Xiyan and Haoling.

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Cang Xuan is aware that Xiaoliu has gone to look for Tushan Jing, but he is still unconcerned.

Meantime Jing takes Xiaoliu by the hand and leaves Yu Mansion by a secret tunnel.

Cang Xuan had no idea how far Tushan Jing is willing to go for Wen Xiaoliu, and neither did Xiaoliu, until now.

Its night by the time Xiangliu made it to Qingshui town.
He sees an empty room and no Xiaoliu.

The blood streaks on his right sleeve suggested that he encountered some fighting when he came into town.

It’s also strange that he got injured so easily when he is supposed to be one of Dahuang’s top fighters. Won’t Cang Xuan would have taken most of his men towards Haoling in hot pursuit?

Back at Yu Mansion, Fangfeng Yiying is busy selling-out Tushan Jing to Cang Xuan’s lieutenant.
Its probably beneficial to her if Jing was killed while resisting his forces.

She cooperated by pointing them in the right direction where Jing has gone with Xiaoliu.

The novel has a far more elaborate escape plan, complete with fox puppets as decoys. Perhaps due to shooting budget, the drama has simplified this by removing plot where the pair escapes with Tushan’s business caravans, passing through various checkpoints etc. The drama plot instead took the decoys’ path of taking the secret tunnels and staying off the beaten track straight to Haoling.

Xiaoliu and Jing were supposed to escape while squeezed in a small hiding spot under a horse-carriage “with only space for two”.

Drama removed this ‘intimacy due to circumstances‘ moment and it does work out for the better, since Xiaoliu and Jing maintains a respectful distance, drawn closer by feelings not brought on by other physical factors.

因为夹层的狭小逼仄,小六和璟只能紧紧地挨在一起。
Due to the cramped space, Xiaoliu and Jing can only stick tightly next to each other.

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夏日的夜晚,即使露宿,也不觉得冷。

整个镇子都在沉睡,天上的星星格外明亮,小六仰头看着星星,觉得如果再有一个鸭脖子啃,他根本不相信自己在逃亡。

It’s a summer night, even though they were sleeping outdoors, it did not feel cold.

The whole town is asleep, the stars in the sky were especially bright. Xiaoliu looked up at the stars, and felt that if she just had a duck’s neck to eat right then, she won’t even believe she is on the run.

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To ease her guilt that he is giving up his status of being the Master of Qingqiu, Jing finally shared with Xiaoliu what had happened to him all those years ago.

The trauma of the betrayal by a brother he loved, which still haunted him as he recalled the painful past.

A non-flashy skill of Tushan Jing is how he gets proximity alerts of his surroundings and able to determine their spiritual levels.

He tells Xiaoliu very seriously that they have been surrounded and he can’t win.
Xiaoliu managed to find levity in their situation and hid her laughter at their situation.

Xiaoliu comforted Jing that she knows he did his best already.

Not one to give up, Jing had one more card up his sleeve.

Jing had prepared his getaway car mount ( our poor beautiful heron lili 狸狸 who will never get to show its face in the drama ). He handed Xiaoliu a token that will allow his mount to take her wherever she wants to go.

Xiaoliu slowly shook her head and seemed to refuse to show him her true face, without explaining to him that its not that she won’t, but she can’t.

In spite of this, Jing was still willing to let her go.


This important part had also been skipped in the drama.

The big reveal that Tushan Jing knew Xiaoliu’s face was ‘not her real face’ was very blink-and-you-will-miss-it level of underwhelming.

In Yu Mansion, the fox puppets that were supposed to serve as a decoy for Cang xuan’s soldiers, were completely removed. The decoy pair was supposed to take the secret tunnels out of Qingshui town, while the real pair boldly left town as armed guards for Tushan’s goods.

The moment when Xiaoliu realized that Jing had known all along, that Xiaoliu’s face was not his/her real face, was when the fox puppet of Wen Xiaoliu could not display her face after taking her form, since Xiaoliu herself did not know how she looked like.

小六的心扑通扑通直跳,期期艾艾地问:“你……你一直都知道我能变幻容貌?”幻形术虽不是什么高深的法术,可只有灵力高深的人施展出来,才能算幻形,可以瞒住他人。以小六的灵力,是不会有人相信他能施展幻形术的,更不可能相信他能瞒住任何神器的查探。


Xiaoliu’s heart beat wildly, and she stammered ” You…..you knew that I could change my appearance all this while?”
Illusion skills is not considered an advanced skill, but only when a person with high spiritual power executes it, it can be considered as shape shifting to fool others. With Xiaoliu’s spiritual powers, nobody would believe he can shapeshift, let alone believe that his skill can fool divine items.

    璟说道:“涂山氏并不是纯粹的神族血脉,我们上古时的先祖曾是有大神通的九尾狐妖,所以涂山氏的嫡系血脉常天生就会变幻。我有灵眼,几乎可以看破一切变幻迷障之术,所以我能看到阿念的真实容貌,但我看不破你,你的一切都像真的,只是直觉告诉我你的形貌都是假的,所以……我不能离开你,一旦离开,你就会永远消失,一点痕迹不留。”

Jing replied ” Tushan family is not just of deities bloodline, our ancestors used to be formidable fox spirits, hence Tushan family’s direct bloodline are capable of shapeshifting from birth. I possess spiritual eyes, which is capable of seeing through every illusion or formations, so I could see Nian’s real face, but I cannot see yours. Everything about you seems to be real, but my intuition tells me your appearance is fake, so… I cannot leave you, once I leave, you will disappear for good, without a trace.”

小六呆住,璟居然一直知道他是假的。
Xiaoliu was stunned, Jing actually know all this time that he was fake.

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In the drama, Jing never said any of this to Xiaoliu, but some of these words were given to Jing Ye, in a much later episode.

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Xiaoliu told Jing that she will be gone in the wind if he lets her escape by herself and he will never see her ever again, leaving him to deal with the aftermath of abetting her escape.

He nodded that he was still willing, and Xiaoliu smiled sadly at him.

Outside, Cang Xuan tells Xiaoliu to surrender.

Inside, Xiaoliu is not moving at all, as she stood watching Jing as he created a mist barrier with the water in the room. Jing had to push Xiaoliu out of the room and closed the door on her before she turned and ran away.

The way she kept her eyes on him, was like she was trying to etch him into her mind.

Under the cover of the summoned mist, Xiaoliu successfully ran away from the inn.

Cang Xuan manipulated Jing into using his Ye Shiqi persona, so as to not implicate the Tushan family for his choice to help Xiaoliu.

As Jing is taken out by his guard with one blow, Cang Xuan used an amplifying skill to inform Xiaoliu that he will kill Ye Shiqi if he does not return at once.

Outmaneuvered, Xiaoliu rushed back towards the inn.


This episode is about Xiaoliu leaving Qingshui town.

She had planned it for a long while, but now that Cang Xuan is here to bring her to Haoling against her wishes, it has turned into an escape.

It’s also a milestone for Xiaoliu and Tushan Jing’s relationship.

Ye Shiqi had always listened to Wen Xiaoliu in almost everything, except when he was told to stay away.
Xuan had to told her that Jing will not put personal relationships ahead of familial interests but he had proven to her that he can.

Ep 12

 小六去找璟求救,本是一时意气,他想看到璟为难,想听到璟用各种方法说服他,见俊帝并不可怕,不会有害处,璟甚至会许诺陪他一起去见俊帝。小六想亲耳听到、亲眼看到,用这种几乎残酷的选择,斩断自己心底的一丝牵念,让自己走得无牵无挂,让玟小六消失得心甘情愿、毫不留恋。


Xiaoliu had gone to Jing for help, on the spur of the moment. She wanted to see Jing put in a difficult spot, wanted to hear him use every way to convince her, that the King of Haoling is not frightening, it won’t be harmful, and maybe even promise to go see the King together. Xiaoliu wanted to hear with her own ears, see with her own eyes, using this almost cruel method, to cut off the feelings in her heart, to be able to leave without any ties, to let Wen Xiaoliu disappear willingly, without any lingering feelings.

 可是,当小六说不想见俊帝,嬉笑着让璟帮他时,璟没有问他为什么宁可冒死逃跑也不肯见俊帝,也没有思索所有危险,他只是简单地答应“好”,周密地部署逃跑的每一个细节。

However, when Xiaoliu said she did not want to see the King of Haoling, and laughingly asked Jing for help, Jing never asked her why she would rather risk death to escape than tom eet the King. He also did not take into account the dangers, only simply promised her ‘Alright’, and thoroughly made detailed plans for the escape.

小六心底的那丝牵念不仅没有被斩断,反而在蔓延。

Xiaoliu’s feelings not only did not get cut off, continued growing instead.

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